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You turn the corner, all aware
Then it hits you, you were never even there
Again and again, over and over,
It hits you again untill you fall over
Then you strike back,
Hitting nothing but air
Then it hits you,
You were never even there

Chorus

It was the shadows of the dark
Hiding like beasts
Waiting for their feast
They feed on your humiliation
After all, it was just your imagination
Swinging in the air,
As if something was there,
But it was just the Shadows of the Dark

Pushing you to the ground
Stepping all around,
You as if they had won
But the battle has just begun
Then you get up
Looking all around
Then you realize
You're still lying on the ground

(Chorus)

You wish they would get out of your head
You're beginning to dread,
That they will forever haunt you,
But they are just beginning to taunt you
Circling you round & round,
Laughing at you lying on the ground
Their laughter gives them away,
Telling you to swing their way, but

(Chorus)

Then they dissapate,
Lying in wait,
For you to strike again
Then it will begin
Just like before,
You'll be lying on the floor
Under attack, from the Shadows of the Dark

Written by:
Ryan Evans

All this idle chatter,
Staring at each other
Puts my mind in a clatter,
I wish we could just be together

Chorus

Instead we're starting over again,
This first date nonsense is about to begin
Why did we break up?
Why don't we just make-up?
Save the pain of the break up

Your laying on the bed crying,
Lying to yourself, Denying,
That we are not together,
That we're starting over,
Talking about the weather

(Chorus)

You're upset, I see
But if our friends can work it out, so can we
We'll get back together,
So stop crying
We'll get through this,
So stop lying,
To yourself, You'll see
It will be ok, It's not the end but,
A new beginning

Written By:
Ryan Evans

You want to much from me,
You think I'm superman
Everything I do for you,
Is all I can

I hate you, you hate me
Why are we still together?
Put us out of our misery,
So I can stop grimacing

Why can't we put this behind us?
Why can't we move on together?
Start all over again and,
Talk about the weather

I love you, you love me
Why are we always fighting?
Why do you do these things to me?
Why are we so unhappy?

I don't try to control you
So stop trying with me,
Why don't you go away,
And let me be

We're over,
We're through
I've had enough,
I'm done with you

I hate you, you hate me
Thank god it's finally over
No more misery,
So I can stop grimacing

Written By:
Ryan Evans

The Hidden #4

It�s right there in front of you,
Yet so far away
You reach out a hand to touch it
You try all day
But no matter how hard you try
It keeps moving away
When you finally touch it,
It will all melt away

It's what you've always wanted
But now it's gone
You'll never see it again
So it's time to move on
The Hidden has escaped you
you never knew what it was
You knew you wanted it
But not because
Now it's gone forever
It's so hard to believe
Something you took for granted
But knew you'd always need

Maybe you've learned your lesson
But no matter how much you plead
Everything you wanted
Is never to be seen

For my best friend Kate

Written by:
Ryan Evans

In a World of Silence,
Where nobody cares
You sit in the darness
And suffer their stares

Do they know what it's like?
To sit in the darkness, night after night
Being stared at,
Cause you're different from them
Being laughed at,
Cause you're so much different from them

They laugh at you,
And pick on you
because you won't see things,
the way they want you too

In a World of Silence
They don't want you to see,
That you can stand up and shout,
And be what you want to be

You can be an individual,
Instead of just one of the crowd
You can stand out and,
Still be proud

Written By:
Ryan Evans

It's like beauty and the beast
A sad story where she gives up everything,
Just to gain him in return
Was it worth it for her whole life to burn?

I hate Sad Stories with bad endings
Where he goes off to war & dies before the wedding
It's so sad to see a love that's lost,
But it's even worse to see a love that costs

Or when it's right in front of their eyes
But they can't see it,
If they can they just lie
Why would they throw it away?
Why give up on all those happy days?
They should have been together,
Instead they stayed friends forever
Now they live in torture and agony
Living life in a Sad Story

Written By:
Ryan Evans

Misfit #7

I write these poems
In my head
Screaming at you,
Wanting you dead

But it's not to you,
That I write these songs
It's to the misfit,
Who's torment is long

Cause it's bullshit
To watch your hate
Trample him,
Day after Day

"Fuck you too"
He says to you
You laugh at him,
Until he brings a gun to school

Then it's "I'm sorry,
I never meant it."
He says "Fuck you,
You fuckin deadbeat"

Then it's bang, bang
And it's all done
He's crying on the ground,
His hand on the gun

He never meant for it to go this far
But you needed a lesson,
Not just a song.

Written By:
Ryan Evans

In The Midst of a Dream #8

I feel like I'll wake up,
In the midst of dream
Where everything is real,
Or so it would seem

So far, So good
It seems to be
So I'm afraid,
To wake up to this reality

Everything is real
Yet feels so fake
I'm hoping that
From my dream, I won't wake

I'm so afraid,
You are too good to be true
To wake from this dream,
Would mean losing you

So if I never wake,
I will forever be
Happy to remain,
In the midst of a dream.

For Maria

Written By:
Ryan Evans

In The Garden of Eden #9

In the garden of Eden
We lay and we cry.
Hoping the sun,
Will clear up the sky.
Praying for a beautiful day,
That will just wash away,
All the things that went wrong
So you can feel good,
If only just a day long.

Written By:
Ryan Evans

The Darkness #10

You scream silently,
But there's nobody there
If there were,
Would anybody care?

It's you,
Standin in the darkness
Not them,
Your head full of sadness

How does it feel,
All alone in the darkness
Troubled thoughts in your head
On the verge of madness

Ready to run out,
Into the light
Ready to run out,
And start a fight

Make people notice you,
Make people care
Knock someone out,
Let them know you're there

Because you're not ready yet,
To join them in the light
You're still too scared,
To come out of the night

To leave the Darkness
Behind in your mind
To stop being afraid,
And just come out into the light.

Written By:
Ryan Evans

Losing Control #11

When I lose control,
You better run away
Cower in the corner,
And hope to survive the day

When I see you next,
I'll greet you with a smile,
Throw you to the dirt,
And laugh a little while

You stupid fuck
You picked the wrong dude
Now you're gonna pay
And there ain't a damn thing you can do

Written By:
Ryan Evans

Dreams #12

Dreams express,
What you secretly feel
Sometimes you wish
That they weren't real

But they will never,
Go away
One day forever,
You will stay

Never wake from this dream,
Never go away
Now here forever,
You will stay

Written By:
Ryan Evans

Nightmare #13

Please let me out,
Of this nightmare
This isn't funny,
I'm starting to get scared

I'm crying,
And screaming
Hoping the noise,
Will wake me from my dreaming

I want out,
Of this hell you call life
The only way I know,
Is to end it with a knife

Please give me another way,
I'd like to stay,
With you forever
It's now or never,
Is there another alternative?
Is there another way?
Please, I love you
Let me stay

Written By:
Ryan Evans

The Edge #14

Shut your mouth,
And back the fuck up
I'm tired of your shit,
I've had enough

If you don't back up,
I'm going to hurt you
You don't want to tempt me,
I'll break you in two

You're nothing to me,
Never was and never will be
I'll kick your ass,
And still be laughing

Oh, I'm sorry
Did that hurt your feelings?
Like I give a fuck,
Be grateful you're not bleeding

You pissed me off,
And wouldn't go away
Now I'm gonna hurt you,
Now you're gonna pay

You'll be sorry you pissed me off,
You'll be sorry you didn't go
I'm gonna kick your ass,
And watch your blood flow...

Written By:
Ryan Evans

This is The End? #15

Is this the end,
Of our relationship.
Because of Religion??
That's fuckin bullshit

Do you care that,
you've brought me to tears?
I'm so sad,
I'm starting to fear,
That the pain inside won't go away
That now you won't be near
I've been so afraid to lose you,
I miss you being here

I knew this would happen,
I hate this so much
I hate god more than ever,
Why the hell would he do this to us?

I know I shouldn't say that,
But why should I care?
I've lost what's important to me,
You'll no longer be there

You shouldn't do this,
Please change your mind
I love you so much,
Come back and be mine..

Written By:
Ryan Evans

Poems to You #16

I write these poems to you,
To show how I feel inside
How it hurts me so much,
When you start to cry

I'm sorry,
I don't mean to hurt you
But when you say you're fucked up,
I don't know what to do

I get confused,
And hurt inside
I'm very sorry,
I didn't want you to cry

I've had so much fun,
I thought things were going great
I was a little worried though,
When you asked me to wait

I told you we'd still be friends,
And we will
I just need to get straightened out,
I need some time to chill

I like you a lot,
And you've been so nice to me
Maybe we will go out,
We'll just have to wait and see

I'm more fucked up,
Then you'll ever know
I hurt more inside,
Than I'll ever show

I'll be there for you,
When you want me to be
And I'll always be here,
If you ever need me

Written By:
Ryan Evans

My World #17

Why do you hate me?
Do you want me to die?
Why do you laugh at me?
As I walk by
Do you think you�re better than me?
Oh how wrong I will prove you
I will stand strong,
And I will outdo you

I am better than you,
In every sense
When I�m at my worst
You�re at your best

How pathetic you are,
I hate you so much
You're so afraid,
That we will touch
Cause when we do
You know who�ll win
You�ll be on the ground,
Before it begins

So back the fuck up before you get hurt
I�ll beat your ass down,
And rub your face in the dirt
Don�t fuck with me
Unless you want to die
Cause here it�s a Tooth for a Tooth,
And an Eye for an Eye

Written By:
Ryan Evans

Livin the Life of a Psychopath #18

The shrink is in,
Laugh out loud
Run around
We both know I�ve gone crazy
Too much talk
Not enough action
I get so mad I could bash you�re fuckin face in

You make me lay down and tell you all my problems
That�s so fucked up when you�re worse off than I am
I have no real problems
Just trivial shit
I�m fucked in the head
So what, I murdered a bitch

No big deal
I only got life
I have no kids,
Or a wife
I got fired from my job
Cause I killed Bob
So what, he had no life either
He picked on his wife and beat her

He deserved to die
They all do
What reason to live?
We�re all in a zoo
Trapped in cages
Like animals
We�re fuckin HUMAN
Not just mammals

When we get out,
We finally shout
So they think you�ve gone crazy
You�re so fucked up you start to cry like a baby

Well the shrink is in
So it�s time to begin
Tellin them your problems
Maybe you�re not as fucked up as I am

Written By:
Ryan Evans

One Day #19

One day I'll pretend I didn't love you,
One day I'll pretend that I didn't care
Forever I'll remember you,
Even though right now I'm scared

You've got my feelings,
All jumbled up together
But no matter what
Know I'll Love you forever

One Day,
A year or 2 from now,
I'll look back on these times,
And wonder how

How did I survive this?
To live to wonder why
When just a moment ago,
All I could do was cry

The pain still hasn't gone away,
And I doubt it ever will
I've loved you since I met you,
Even now I still.

Written By:
Ryan Evans

When I say I love you,
I mean it
From the depths of my soul
From the core of my heart you hear it

You are my blue angel,
My love, my baby
When I'm with you
All bad things fade away

All sickness,
All pain
Left with everything to lose,
And nothing left to gain

Having fear of losing you
But praying that you won't let me go
I trust you with my heart
I wrote this to let you know

I hope you never hurt me
I know I never will
When forever comes,
I know I will love you still.

Written By:
Ryan Evans

Tears of Blood #21

As tears of blood run down her face
She thinks to herself,
'I hate this place,
It's cold and damp
And no one's here
I hate this place,
I hate being here'

This new town,
Has destroyed her
She misses her friends,
And wishes she was closer

Life's been shit,
Since she left home
Now she sits at night,
crying to herself alone

She hates the world,
And wishes she would die
She thinks about the past,
As she sharpens the knife

She begins, to write a note
To the people she loves
To let them know,
She loves them
But she can't take this life
She says goodbye,
And cuts her throat with a knife

As the blood,
Pours from her wound
Her last thought is,
She gave up too soon.

Written By:
Ryan Evans

Baby Blue #20

I love you baby,
Never let me go,
Let me keep you,
To hug and to hold
You are very special to me
I will never forget you,
I love you,
My Baby Blue

Written By:
Ryan Evans

I Should've Known #23

I can't take this pain anymore,
Will it ever go away?
This throbbing of my heart,
It's the sound of dismay

I hate life,
And I hate this place
I hate the tears,
Running down my face

Why won't everything,
Just leave me alone
I was a fool for you
I should've known
We'd never last,
Not this time
I should've known
You were never mine

I gave my heart to you,
And you tore it up
I've told you "I love you",
And I will never stop

Written By:
Ryan Evans

No Longer There #24

I don't want be here,
I don't like this place
I don't want to stay here
I don't want to see your face

I can't stand,
To see you crying
Telling me you still love me,
I know you're lying

You never loved me,
I know this now
If you did,
How could you leave me? How?

How could you do this?
How could you make me cry?
I pretend I don't care,
But I really hurt inside

I really do love you,
But you don't seem to care
You don't seem to notice,
That I'm no longer there

Written By:
Ryan Evans

Suicidist's Dream #25

Today I'm going,
To learn to fly
Jump off a cliff,
And sail through the sky

Or maybe,
I'll could learn to use a knife,
Cut off a finger,
Lose my life

Or maybe,
I'll play Tug-of-war
Me as the rope,
Between the ceiling and floor

There are so many,
Fun ways to go
I can't decide,
I just don't know

Maybe I'll take pills,
And go to sleep
In my Suicidist's Dream,
I will leave

Written By:
Ryan Evans

Written by:
Ryan Evans

I know you love me,
But I can't see why
Why you would give me up?
Why would you let me cry?

I told you,
I'll do anything to keep you
You're my everything,
There isn't anything I wouldn't do

I love you,
And still hope you'll change your mind
I know I'm pathetic,
But I still hope you'll be mine

I knew that,
Someone like you,
Could never feel,
Like I feel for you

I had my hopes,
But I should've known
You faith in god,
Is too much to the bone.

Written by:
Ryan Evans

I miss you so much,
I cry to myself
I want to hold you close,
So I lie to myself

I tell myself,
Everything will be ok
But for me it won't,
I need you to stay

I love you more,
Than anyone
And I know my pain,
Has just begun

The pain will be there,
For many years
The pain will be there,
Causing many tears

I miss you more,
Than I ever have anyone
You brighten my day up,
My own Personal Sun

You are worth it,
Everyday
Even if the pain,
Never goes away

I love you,
And I will forever try
To keep you heart,
And change your mind

Written by:
Ryan Evans

So there is a God,
So fucking what
He doesn't care about me,
Nobody gives a shit

I'm nothing,
Not to him or anyone
That's why I'm starin,
Down the barrel of a gun

I hate you all,
I hate this place,
I hate that look,
On everybody's face

Nobody will miss me,
When I'm gone
The answers all along,
Have always been in my songs

But nobody cared,
Nobody took the time
Nobody gave a shit,
Nobody ever cried.
Not for me
Nobody had the time

The tears at the funeral,
So few there were
No suprise there,
I just wish somebody cared...

Written by:
Ryan Evans

Whatever happened,
To those promises you made?
I think about them now,
As I read the poems you gave

You say it was religion,
Then how come I find
When I changed the religion,
You changed your mind

You said,
"Nothing like this will happen again"
So then how come,
It never had a chance to begin

You said
"Never let me go, I love you"
I told you I wouldn't,
I never had too

You took that chance from me,
As you broke the promises you made
I try to understand you,
By reading the poems that you gave

But no answers are there,
Only pain
I don't understand what I did wrong,
I thought things were great
To keep the girl of my dreams,
I musta been insane

Written by:
Ryan Evans