Risks
To speak is to risk being laughed at,
To believe is to risk being proven wrong,
To laugh is to risk crying,
To love is to risk being hurt,
But to live is to risk dying,
So what is life without risks?
Written By:
Cassie Hartoon
Boy
Why can't people forget?
Why can't people forgive?
Let the boy of long ago,
Fade, and let the new one live
Or must he pay for the rest of his life,
For a kid that is no more
Tossed aside by everyone,
Pushed out the door,
By parents, friends, & enemies
No one looks to see,
No one looks and takes the time,
For the boy to no longer be
All they see when they look at him,
Is a kid that's no longer there
But nobody will ever know,
Because nobody takes the time to care
Written By:
Brandon Scot
Real Name: Ryan Evans
Why Does Everything Have To Go This Way?
Why do things have to go this way?
Why can't everything just be ok?
I don't know why and I don't know how
But I would like to know what I'm supposed to do now
My life was good my life was great
But now my life is full of hate
I don't know why and I don't know when
But I do know now that I did all that I can
My life is good my life is great
My life is no longer full of hate
But then everything turns around
One friend is crying
The other is down
What did I do?
What did I say?
Why can't everything just be ok?
Friends will be friend�s that�s all I can say
Especially on a particular day
One friend drops u for a guy
The other one just wants to die
Why did I do that?
It's hard to say
I hope that everything will be ok
I don't know why and I don't know how
I also don't know what im going to do now
Everything is a mess
My life is not the best
Written By:
Melissa McLean
I am Me
I sit in my room, like I have as always
Wanting everyone to know what I�ve felt
The pain and the suffering is just too much
But what feels worse is the love that I�ve lost
I lost what I feel as a person inside
And all this fucking shit that has taken my life�
It�s taken the beautiful things that have occupied my head
And filled my brains with bad things instead
So every night, when I am untouched, I take my needle�
And My heart starts to rush�.
Tears flow, and my razors dull
I am upset and ready to go
To a better place where I can be me
And not someone who is intended to never be free
Cuz I know it won�t happen, its not destiny
Its not fate, but fails as misery
I can see me as always before,
Me on the bed,
And my tools on the floor
I�m like the painter who drew the sky,
I hurt myself in agony to see the inside
All these pictures, scars and tears,
Don�t help me to live and bring out my fears
I�m suffering inside to leave this world,
I know I�ll get there, I belong in that beautiful place�.
So as I watch myself in the mirror,
I know I can stop myself, there is no where to go,
But to the outside of me and out in the cold
I try to stop myself but its much too late,
I can�t hear me and I can�t resist the hate
I�m screaming inside, but all I want to do
Is make my life better and be what it used to
And now I know it�s at its best�
Because looking at me now I know I have left
I have left this world for something more, that wasn�t there
And hasn�t before�..
Being here has changed my existence, it has made me see�
That I used to be happy, I used to give a damn
And I was lucky enough to be what I am
I had made it as me, and that�s lucky enough
I figured out me, wasn�t quite so tough
Being here among the dark,
Wasn�t as bad as when I was alone,
Maybe if I knew this then, I wouldn�t have gone�
Maybe if I was smart and did the right thing
I wouldn�t be here, I wouldn�t be crying�
I�m crying with no one, All is just me
I thought I could be better, but all I needed was me
To see all the pain people go through for one person who hated life,
Just goes to show you, that the Old man is right
Written by:
Kali Kirk
Never-Ending Dream
To the only love in my life Ryan
You were there through alot
You watch as my dad treated me like shit
You helped me when I was down
And now I'm up
You always protected me against pain
People say that's the worst thing for someone
But not for me it only helped me
Nothing wrong could ever hurt us
Then I had to leave like an never ending dream
But I would always come back
And you would always would be there
Now I realize that you won't be anymore
And that hurts inside
But we have to deal with the it
Our perfect summer is over
Written By
Becca Bradley
Blood Stains
The snow
In an attempt
To make things
Good and right and pure
With it's white and ice
It's white virginity
Is just irony to
Cover the fact that
Some things bleed....
And blood stains....
By Caitlin Lombardo
The Gash
Here I stand
A lone girl
No one to love
And to not be loved back
You say it's okay
I say it's not
The deep gash inside me
Won't go away
So many things gone wrong
In so little time
I turn on the music
The problems float away
Drifting on the notes with ease
But I know they'll be back
To stay
I can't help the way I feel
I just don't want you to hurt
Or him to feel
the pain of knowing
he caused....... the gash
by Caitlin Lombardo
Dream
I'm surrounded by darkness
Just waiting to awake
I've been in here so long
I had as much as I can take
Everytime I turn around
I see your pretty face
Trying to clear up
What you put in my space
I guess your still in my mind
Well that's what it seems
Because everytime I go to sleep
I see you in my dreams
I try to get you out
But it seems to hard
I guess they're right when they say
You can't cure a broken heart
I try to forget you
Every single day
But I always see you
With every word I say
So when I go to sleep
And I see you in my dreams
I always ask myself
What does it mean
I don't really know
Maybe it's a sign
Maybe it has to be
Because I can't put it aside
My dream is like a cut
That cannot be healed
Maybe it's not a dream at all
Maybe it's for real
Written By:
Mike
Feelings
All these feelings that I'm having
I wish they would all go away
Why is it because I loved you
That these feelings have to stay
Maybe if we were together
This wouldn't be so hard
I wouldn't have to face these feelings
That are coming from my broken heart
These emotions that I'm having
Why do I have to feel
I wish they would disappear
So I could pretend they were never real
I hope these feelings will heal
And go away forever
So I don't have to think about
The feeling when I loved her
Some feelings may feel right
Some feelings may feel wrong
The only reason why I'm mad
Is because they last so long
These feelings will stay in my mind
No matter what I do
It doesn't matter I do
It doesn't matter if I love
Or even hate you
Written By:
Mike
You Left Me
You left me sitting here
You left me alone in tears
You left me in a chill
You left me without my will
I can't go on because of you
I thought are love was really true
It feels like you played me all along
I thought it was love, I was wrong
So all I have left to do is wait
Just until god opens his gate.
Written By:
Mike
Feelings of Pain
My feelings are down deep,
These secrets I must keep.
They're the reasons I do the things I do,
You don't know what I go through.
When they lie to me,
They think I don't see.
I run and hide,
But they find in my mind.
I try to find,
A cure for my thoughts and pain,
That were lost.
No one can help me,
I'm gone for good.
If I could,
I would,
Maybe I should,
But I can't,
And I won't,
Die
Written by:
Catie Holman
Different
I have no clue what's going on,
For my mind has gone wrong.
I smile and laugh when I don't understand,
All that goes through my mind is music of a band.
I'm confused in every way,
If I could I'd sleep all day.
I tend to talk fast,
And let the day turn to past.
I'm crazy I know,
But I love it so much.
People may laugh at me,
But I pretend not to see.
Why can't others except me the way that I am?
So what if I'm different and don't act like them?
I'm not gonna change and be someone I'm not,
I like who I am and I'm all that I've got
Written by:
Catie Holman
The Voice
TODAY I WAS FINE . TODAY I WAS ALONE. AROUND A ROOM OF PEOPLE.
A PAIN GREW YOU COULDN'T KNOW.
THEN THE HATE RIPPED OUT . OUT INTO THE DARK. THE DARK I AM SURROUNDED IN LIKE BLACK ROSES IN A PARK.
SUCH BEAUTIFUL FLOWERS, CORRUPTED WITH ANGER, SADNESS AND PAIN IS LEFT TO LINGER.
THERE IS A NEEDLE THAT GOES THROUGH MY EAR, THERE IS A VOICE OF LIGHT THAT I CANNOT HEAR.
THEN THE VOICE COMES TO ME THROUGH MY DARKENED DAY.THE SERENITY OF ME IS WHAT IT WILL SAY.
Written by:
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My World
Lost Again,
Nowhere to turn,
Lost in my mind,
No focusing,
No thoughts able to stay,
Come back to reality,
Can't remember what I was thining,
Like I was dreaming,
Dreaming with my eyes wide open,
Don't know what I was thinkin about,
Don't know why I was thinkin what I was,
Too much going on in my head,
No way to pretend anymore, Can't dream that it never happened,
Have to wake up everyday to remember it,
Wishing I could go back and change the past,
If I could do it all over again there are so many things I would have changed,
All my regrets,
But I have to live with all that has happened,
So I put myself in another world,
My world,
Where it didn't happen,
Where nothing can go wrong,
Where things go my way,
Where I can change situations if I don't like them,
Why I do it I may never know,
But it's my world to live in when I can't face the one I do live in,
I may feel lost but I can find myself there,
Find all that's lost,
All that goes wrong can go right,
I can bring back what I've lost,
Keep thinks from happening,
Maybe just to keep myself from getting hurt,
Hurt isn't what I like to feel,
It's where I can go to keep all the pain out,
Where I can go to keep people from hurting me,
Where I can hurt the people that threaten me,
The place I can go to be the me I want to be,
The place that I can call mine,
It's my world!
By: Sarah Michelle!
copyright � 2005 Sarah Michelle, all rights reserved
I Miss You #1
I count the days
It never seems to get any closer
You're so far away
I sit around and count the hours,
Hoping you'll come around
I wonder if you think of me, too.
I think of you all the time
I dream of you every night
Do you even remember me?
Because I'll never forget you
Never, ever stop worrying about you
How you are, and what you're doing now
If you've passed on or if you're alright
Have you moved on?
I wonder if you even miss me
'Cause I'll never stop missin you
Written By:
Lacey Bembridge