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Because of You #1
Tossing back and forth, side to side.
Feels like I'm slowly dying inside.
Why does it matter?
Your memories shatter.
What I remember of you is now broken.
My words left unspoken.
Vulgar, Untrue.
I gave it time, I gave it effort.
Now nothing's quite the same.
You came to me in a dream, your voice hot so hard to tame.
Because of you, I will never smile the same smile.
Because of you, I will never think without a single thought of you.
Because of you, I will always look but not see.
Because of you, I will never be the same.
Why must I beat myself up?
Just because you finally gave up.
I won�t let you torture me like this.
Never be but not to kiss.
Your only to have not to hold.
My soul now an empty shell of my former self.
Because of you, I will never smile the same smile.
Because of you, I will never think without a single thought of you.
Because of you, I will always look but not see.
Because of you, I will never be the same.
Never be the same, Never be the same.
And its all because of you...
Bipolar Me #2
I love how the rain pours on your parade,
How the winter brings such coldness,
How the summer brings such suffering,
How spring brings things that bloom and die!
I used to leave the lights on because I was scared of things I could not see,
Now I sleep with darkness surrounding me.
There used to be a beat to this heart of mine,
Now its more like ...Beep ...Beep ...Beep {Flat line!}
But nobody cares about me,
Or how I care to see.
I see with eyes bright as stars,
I swear, I come from Mars!
I have an inner-child that will never cease to be,
I have a spirit that is always free!
I�m bipolar,
A chip on your shoulder.
Sarcastic,
Energetic,
And just simply pathetic!
But no matter how much I say it,
I will NEVER be heard!
Broken Suicide #3
Swim around in a stream of broken glass,
I come to shore to bleed to death.
Bleeding out the pain that I once felt for you,
Laying there a worthless body cold and blue.
And to think, still I think of you...
My Circus Side-Show #4
I cut myself to see how much it bleeds
It's a sudden taste of life
Just a little drip of my sanity
Was I really sane in the first place
This reality is a mental institution
I'm caged in it
Why can't I have the key?
Have I not been a good girl
Have I not been taking the right pills
What's wrong with me?
Diagnosed with this social disease
You stare at me all in black
Oh how goth is that
When I turn you stare at my back
I'm not that big of a threat
Do you suppose I have a gun under this trench coat?
Well,...I don't so turn your ass around and stop staring me down
This is my circus side-show
And I'm on display but it's not funny like ha-ha
It's funny like I told you so
I'm a freak
I'm a loser
You didn't have to tell me that
Keep staring little boy
I might do a disappearing act...
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