Embassy #1
Standing alone
With everyone around
Vibrations
Whores
Towhat end
So much to know
So little to be taught
Feeling you
Craving my own self
Wanting feelings that are absent
Helplessly dirty
Sweaty lights
Unreturned love
Alone
Be everything
Your nothing
Refreshingly jaded
Headstrong
Written By:
Jenna Smith
Queen #2
Comin up/
Comin up fast in my world
Falling
Scrabbling on rock bottom in yours
Achiving what little I`ve strived for
Failing at anything you`ve set out
For me
Life is what I make it
Lose the attitude
It just aggrivates me
You have no power
Get it straight
I`ll love you if I want
Reject me all you like
Your still everything
Slowly attatching to someone new
Setting myself up for more hurt
I wouldn`t want it any other way
Cryptic feelings generalized by words
Ghosts of those I loved ripping at my heart
What did I do that was so horrible
Have I changed so much
Written By:
Jenna Smith
London #3
Independance
Solitude
Help me
Be with me
Fearing to return to what you know/
Throwing yourself headfirst into strange surroundings
No home to return to at the end of the day
What is a home
Leachng off so many while holding your head high
Hating religon/
Screaming for an absent god/
Demanding justice
Using
Ripping apart your future
Temporary beauty
Temporary whore
Shoot this up
Toke on that
Snort this, all of it!
Now, Stop thinking
Written By:
Jenna Smith
For Anne #4
I`d never tell
Dirty Secrets
Not so little
Anything is more important
Look the other way
Starving for a chance
Steel squares to run in
Groups for mingling
Dieing for depression
Living for your talent
Mumbling this part
The opressor
And me
Written By:
Jenna Smith
John #5
I won`t be
The one who broke you
Just tell me
How can I replace you?
When your all I want
And I`m the last thing on your mind
Let me break you
Let me detroy you like you have done to so many others
I`ll beat the absence of me from you.
Written By:
Jenna Smith
[Underpass] #6
You`ll never be the one for me
I`ll never become your gothic doll
A puppet to your lust
You`d like to think your depth surpasses them
That your so much more alluring
Just a face in the crowd
I`ll just have you know
I`ve seen better
I`ve had more skilled
I`ve loved smarter
And you don`t mean much to this fool
Written By:
Jenna Smith
[Boardwalk/Emery] #7
I`ll just pretend you never were
That none of this happened
After all you`ve done so well at it
Deleting memories one by one
Your face is still so prominent
But the entirety of you is fading
Is fading so fast
When we`d lay under the stars
And talk about your dissapating dreams
Often pausing for tears
I told myself you`d always be here
That our love for one another was equal
A handful of the past
So little but enough to make me crumble
Written By:
Jenna Smith
[Beat Me] #8
Invading my dreams
Like a tumor
Every night we sought one another
Happiness was in adundance
Yet
Turning black
As your hidden agenda
You`d find my fears
Refusing your permanence
Every night you`d raise your fist to me
With every bone that snapped in your hate
The more free I became
Every frustration you`d beat into me
Comes with a fragment of love
You`d stop and stare, disgusted with my contentment
With my last willed breath of life
I`d touch your cheek as I once longed to
And whisper my own treason
Awake
Written By:
Jenna Smith