Shannon
Christy
Sara was 15 years old when she commited suicide. I am Sara's mother. If sara were here right now im sure she would be happy to tell you. Suicide is not the way out!
Sara wrote what you first read the night she attempted suicide. She didnt suceed yet. But what she did do was get herself very hurt. She was in a coma for almost a year, after loosing alot of her blood.
After her coma. She was put into a mental ward. That was a year ago. She spent almost 10 months their. She finally improoved and was sent home. We were so proud.
One Saterday we asked her to babysit her sisters so we could go out for our wedding aniversery. We had no idea their would be any problems.
We came home to Andy and Dany, Saras sisters crying. They were two at the time. According to their mumbled words Sara had gone to the kitchen to make hot coco.
When it had been a "long time" they went to see what happened. Stepping in the blood on the floor they saw their sister, lying their. Dead.
Sara had commited suicide. She had left no note. But carved into her arm said "This was not your fault".
Sara shot herself in the head. Please if you want to die. Get help. The loss of Sara traumatized alot of people. We loved her so much. No matter what you think, your family loves you.
Life is over,
This is an escape,
taking all the pills,
cutting my wrists to deep.
Eating stencil,
from that ugly chritmas tree.
Soon ill be dead,
But please just lay in bed.
Dont worry about me.
My dreams are coming true.
Soon ill be in the ground,
waiting for you.
The blood is on the table,
I cry myself to sleep,
runaway,
Cut really deep.
Harm is the way to go,
Keep you alive,
Even if you are not well.
Runaway from life,
hide from your parents,
let you scars show,
Make a life in paris.
Ill always be here when you need me,
The bloody knife in hand,
Please dont worry,
I know men dont understand.
I love you,
always,
Don't forget.
Even if i want to die,
I remember you,
And remember im always by your side.
Me
dont know if i care,
dont know if im gonna die,
dont know if im there,
dont know why my tears fall from my eyes,
dont know if the blood I shed is for him,
Dont know why i care,
Dont know why Im here,
Dont know if im gonna cry,
Dont know whos gonna dry my eyes,
Dont know if my life is though,
Dont know know why it makes a diffrence,
Dont know where im going,
Dont know why it matters,
Dont know if he ever loved me,
Dont know if he ever cared,
Dont know if i give a fuck,
Dont know If Ill care If hes ever there,
Dont know why but Ive decided that i love him,
Dont know why but im always gonna cry,
Dont know why but i do fucking care,
dont know why but GOD DAMNIT I WANT HIM THERE!
But all alone,
in an empty place,
I just wanna be great.
I wanna inmpress everyone that i meet,
I wanna be perfect,
for everyone and there feet.
i want to make magic,
and fly from the sky,
i wanna be bad,
and make everyone sad,
i wanna worship,
he who most think is wrong,
but ofcorse i dont wanna be mom,
As i look at her shes perfect,
unlike me,
shes didnt get to left feet,
I wanted those golden feet,
she shines so bright,
because shes inportaint,
and im just another girl,
on the same old path....
