Okay, so the title say's it all. And, strangely enough, the phrase I put in my profile for the last month or so fits as well.
I met someone tonight. Okay I met her a week ago, but I didn't see her in the light that I did this evening.
I won't mention her name, that would be rude. I will tell you that she is magnificent. Every thought that I began she completed. Every thought that she began I did as well. She is as beautiful as any goddess has ever been.
I don't know why I didn't notice her last week. Maybe because I've been so pre-occupied by everything going on in my life, but I didn't. This week I saw her again, and she was everything that I have ever dreamed of.
She is obviously not interested in me. All I could do was sit and gaze in wonder at what an amazing woman she is.
I guess I have to let some of my facade go. I’m a shy man. When I meet someone who amazes me in every facet, I lose my nerve. I don’t know how to “Say those first three words” as Billy Joel said. Instead, I just sit there and wonder why a woman as amazing as her would never be with a man like me.
She is an amazing woman, and after the last one I let slip through my fingers (not the first, and more than likely not the last), I wonder how I can get myself to get beyond the “friend talk” and “kiss da girl”.
I hope I haven’t been too depressing tonight. I just don’t know what to do anymore. It seems the only women I ever meet have their “mind on my money, and my money on their mind”, something I don’t have a great deal of. Call it a rant. I guess this is a blog after all.
If anyone has managed to overcome this shortcoming in the
past, email me. I could use any advice I could get.