Wow. In one day I have managed to make the mother of my child cry, and get the love of my life to do the digital equavilent of storm out of the room and slam the door behind her. This, my friends, is why I am a pacifist.
The day was not going to well to begin with. Payday usually doesn't. I let my stress about bills and how I'm going to get my finances caught up carry over to those around me. I started a fight. I fought dirty. Then in my regret from starting the fight managed to alienate the woman I love.
I think I already had a good head start on the last one. I've been...Well, I've been me. I have particular tastes, and particular behaviors. I think that both of these may turn out to be unacceptable for our relationship. I can change both, but I think that change may be too little and too late. Once again, I think I have managed to tear the foundation away from yet another relationship. How many people do I have to hurt, and in turn be hurt myself, before I finally get it right.
In closing, I don't know if I should really post this or not. I'm going to. I just think it is going to get negative reactions, assuming anyone still reads this stupid thing.
I am just a worthless
liar. I am just an imbecile.
I will only complicate you. Trust in me and fall as well.
I will find a center in you. I will chew it up and leave.
I will work to elevate you. Just enough to bring you down.
"Sober", Tool