In trying to come up with a title for this entry I kept maximizing and minimizing my last entry, thus the title. Stuff has happened, I just couldn't come up with a one line blurb to encompass it.
I really hate Faust. He just grates on my nerves. Unfortunately, he has said things from time to time that hit really close to home. When I first started this blog, he commented on my lack of willpower (For those that don't remember, I had quit the forums at the time). I guess he was right.
In my last posting, I said that I was going to quit the social scene. That lasted a few weeks. Drinking I'm doing pretty good about. I had a few beers, but was by no means drunk (Kudos for me). I went to a club this past weekend that I haven't been to in years. It was kind of a last ditch effort to find somewhere that I could still have fun, and come to find out I really missed the club. I had a great time, lots of good music, friends I haven't seen in a long time, and made a new friend.
That last one would be the reason I have decided to make another entry. Okay, I met her Sunday, but it was a magical evening. I'm certain everyone has at least once in their life met that person that they have an immediate connection with. Some people like to call it "Love at first sight", I don't think that term is accurate. Love is something that takes time, not always a long time, but time none the less. I prefer to call it chemistry. Anyway, that's what happened.
A friend of mine introduced me to her, and there was a small amount of casual talk. A friend of my friend is generally my friend, and she did seem like an interesting person. I think the connection came when she decided she needed to dance. I don't dance. I guess I should say, I dance in the privacy of my own home with all the blinds shut. At the risk of sounding self conscious, I look like MC Hammer on crack when I try to dance. It just isn't pretty. Anyway, I was enjoying her company, so I decided to follow her and watch her dance.
I think that is when chemisty hit. It's not that it was a particularly sexy dance. I think all dancing is sexy, but what I'm trying to say is that it wasn't "bump and grind" kind of dancing. The thing that makes dancing interesting to me is that you can really see a person for who they are if they are letting the music guide their motions. I made a stumbling, walk around the subject attempt at asking her out on a date. I guess it worked, because we went out last night.
We went to see a movie. The movie was okay, it was a sequel and I liked the first movie better. The company was unbelievable. We talked about work, I told my lame jokes, we had a nice dinner together. It's the first time in a long time that I've talked to someone and didn't feel like they were tuning me out (I do tend to ramble).
Long story made even longer: I think there might be potential here. I'm trying to be more careful with my heart these days, and I'm not going to let myself jump into this head first. The more I learn, though, the more I feel like this is a good thing.
Update for those who are interested in my progress from my last post:
1) I've had a few interviews, still just one job though.
2) My brother is supposed to be moving in by the end of the month.
3) Crash. I got a virus so I was only able to finish one story, and it still needs alot of editting.
4) I've procrastinated. No work on lyrics. No real attempts to join a band. I might start singing karaoke again, but it's not a priority.
5) It feels like grave robbing, but I'm supposed to be getting some money from my Grandmother's will that should help me get my bills caught up, and leave me enough to go back to school.
Living just isn't
hard enough. Burn me alive inside.
Disturbed, Prayer