*Insert massive amounts of profanity here*
Once again, I have made a drunken blunder. This time it has cost me dearly. I said some things I shouldn't have, and I know that I will not be fogiven.
*More profanity*
Anyway. The holiday stress is starting to wind down. I've got the room I'm trying to rent posted on Craigslist again, and I'm out this weekend looking for a second job. A few years, and everything will be smooth again (Financially at least). I am going to look to the bright parts of my future, and look less upon the dark shadows of my past.
The important thing is, as difficult as it may be, I am going to quit drinking. I guess it goes further than that, I am dropping out of the social scene all together. You guys on TW will still see me in the forums, but to the rest of the world I am going to disappear. I'm finding lately that I'm not enjoying going out. I was a little when I had someone to share it with, but while she was out of town I realized that I was just enjoying her company not the actual outing. Now that she is gone, I really don't want to go out at all.
This is a good thing. I will be able to focus on the more important things in my life. By this time next month I have promised myself that I will have done the following, and would like if people would check with me to make certain I am working towards my goals (Thanks guys):
1) I am going to get a second job.
2) I am going to find someone to help me pay the rent (Roommate).
3) I am going to finish at least 2 of my short stories, and start working on getting them published.
4) I am going to finish the lyrics to all the songs I have been writing for the past year (There are six of them).
5) I am going to come up with an active action plan for getting my debt cleared up and building up savings.
I know I can do these things. Life has been rough the past few months, but it is time for me to dust myself off and claw my way back to the surface.
I may have lost my love, but I am not going to lose my sanity.