Chapter
One - Logan's POV
I know she's not dead. I feel it in my heart. When she was with me i felt so
complete, so whole. But when i heard that shot, I felt it rip through my
heart. I could feel flesh tearing and everything hurt. I felt her pain
divided by two. Now I feel her pain too. She's tied somewhere. I can feel her
breathing, I can feel her fighting them, i can even feel her hurt. But the
thing is, I can't feel her heart. I don't hear it's melody in my ear, I
don't feel it beating in my heart. She's alive. I know it. She has to be.
But will she be the same?
Bling tries to tell me that I'm wrong. That i need to get over it, get over
her. But I can't. It's been 1 year and I still feel her love. I feel apart
of me that hasn't died yet. I've been walking with out the "exo" for
a while
now. I only do it for her, hoping some day she'll know that if it wasn't for
her I wouldn't have the will to do so.
I sleep a lot now. It seems it's the only time that I can see her now. I used
to be able to close my eyes and feel her next to me. I could smell her, hear
her voice, and see her beautiful eyes staring at me. Now it doesn't come as
easily and in dreams is the only time when once again we are together. It's
the time when i can hold her in my arms and tell her how much I love her.
"Yo! Log-boy! where you at?" Cindy's scream on the other side of my
door
knocks me out of my reverie as I walk to the door and open it for her. I see
her more and more since that night, the night that max got shot.
"Hey," I greet her. Over time i have gotten happier and i don't sit
and cry
anymore. I still miss her but now, for everyone else i pretend I'm happy. I
laugh and I smile. I even go out with them occasionally.
"Just thought I oughta tell you that lata one a Original Cindy's friends
is
gonna come knock-knocking on your door. She's my friend and I thought you
need some cheerin' up. You be actin' all happy-yappy but you can't fool OC.
Original Cindy knows all, sees all, and hears all. You been lonely long
enough. I know you missin' my boo but she's not comin' back"
Original
Cindy's voice softens as she finishes, she misses max too, she just wants her
to come back.
"And what will your friend be doing coming over here?" I ask
slightly
curious, I was planning to go to bed early tonight.
"She's gonna...ummm....don't you worry! You two will have fun. I
promise."
And with that she turns and walks away. I really think she's lost some of her
spunk since I told her what happened to max. It seems as if her attitude has
softened.
Everyone was changed by max leaving, even Bling. He still tries to be the
ultimate cheerleader but I can sense that he misses her too. The other day he
came in to check up on me and found me sending out an Eyes Only broadcast.
"All those that hand in this operation WILL go down. I will be relentless
and
I will persevere. I am Eyes Only. You cannot hide from me." I sent out
messages like these when she first left, this is the first one i've sent in
almost 2 months. He thought I was over her. As I turned all the equipment off
I eyed Bling. He seems misty eyed, as if he was actually going to cry.
"What?" I knew why he was sad. I was sad too.
"Nah, nothing man. It's just... You really need to get over her, man.
You...
you... you know she's gone. I know. Everyone knows. By you bringin' her back
it just...reminds everyone. We all need to get over her man." Slowly he
left.
I haven't seen him since then and I'm glad. He's a great guy and one of my
best friends but I hate to see him crying over Max too. It's just too much.
Maybe I'll nap before Cindy's friend comes over.
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