As
i sit here on the top of the needle and think about all that has happen so
far this year, I am amazed at how quickly it all changed. Mainly that change
was because of one man. Logan Cale, all I have to do is think his name and
time just seems to stop. I wonder how after all of the training I recieved
in Manticore about how emotions were a weakness and how never to stay long
on enemy turf, I've thrown it all away on a guy. i swear that i have no idea
how he got to me but he under my skin and i can't stop thinking about him.
I gave him my blood, my super-charged-hyped-up blood saved his life. I am in
awe, it worked I alone was able to save his life; the doctors couldn't but I
could. It makes me feel good to know that.
I think that I am in love with him. such a small word with such Huge
complications. I wonder though if we could disapear from Lydecer and just be
us
could we make it together? Now that is an interesting thought. Me and
Logan.
If I could set up the perfect happily ever after, it would be me and
logan
living in a small little house with 2 little kids running around the
backyard
without a care in the world. We would be happy, in love, and
safe.
Wait what am I thinking I don't even know if I could have his children,
maybe
i can. Oh why am I wondering about something that will never happen. I
don't
even know if Logan can have kids. Maybe my blood will be able to fix
that
back of his. Maybe I need to stop wishing for dreams and live in reality. He
said that we didn't hae that type of relationship when i tried to explain
the Eric thing. But that was before this is now. Thank God that I never
slept with that loser. What were my hormones thinking! What would Logan
think? Why should I care what Logan thinks about my past, a girl's got needs
too. He isn't exact as pure as snow either. But that is the problem, I do
care, a lot! oh well who knows maybe Logan will be my knight in shining
armor. Who knows.
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