These writings are pieces of my life, past and present.
Three little voices. I can hear their cries,and see sadness in their eyes.I go to help them, but my hands are tied,
I cannot move.Others ignore them,their cries go unheard.Gone is their happiness.Three hearts SHATTERED.
I LOVE YOUS NEVERENDING
I have built this house of glass from trust, hope, faith and dreams.
It in itself reflects the simpleness, joy and kindness of love.
Without warning a tornado brewing from deciept, missguidance,
unfaithfulness and broken promises tears through my house.
Glass shatters, flying everywhere, the sharp edges cut deep,
With one sliver slicing through the heart.
As the storm passes, I fall to the ground.
Unable to pick myself up, I lay there dying.
Until finaly death engulfs my house of glass.
My eyes open and all I see is a darkness,
but wait today is different,
something has changed.
There is a flicker of light,
it grows with each new day.
Soon it is all I am able to see,
I like this brightness.
I wonder what has caused this light,
so I begin to explore it.
It doesn't take me long to find the source,
I wake up and look around... IT'S YOU!
Not once, but twice this heart was handed to you in hopes
that you would care for and love it as it so loved you
It was believed that you would show it the kindness
and respect that it showed towards you.
The hope was that you would share your dreams
and heartaches like it shared with you.
It's dream was that you desired it for all of eternity
as it so desired you.
Reality is everything you told this heart was a lie
that it believed until now to be true.
So now all this heart has for you is seven little words, they are "fuck off we're through me and you".
My fate awaits me, intuition tells me so.
With someone so special, he'll make my heart glow.
I hear him calling, from the depths of his soul.
Our lives shall entwine, and our dreams shall flow.
When at last we meet, our love will only grow.
Here I sit, so sad and blue.
All day long just thinking of you.
So far away are we two.
I've waited so long to meet you.
Dreaming of our lives together.
Thinking of what we'll have to weather.
This love we feel so real so true.
All our lives, just me and you.
If you looked into these eyes what would you see?
Don't let me fool you,
I'm not as happy as you may think.
I know how to pretend,
years of practice have made me good at it.
When you see me you don't pay attention to my outter shell.
You hear the words I have to say,
but you don't read between them.
If you listened carefully,
looked beyond my shell "deep into my soul"
you would see there is nothing there.
I am hollow inside,
my eyes don't smile,
my voice doesn't sing,
These eyes are vacant,
void of any meaning.
I don't really care if I live or die,
to me it's all meaningless.
I am slowly dying from within.
Look closely and you'll see... "THE REAL ME".
You caught me by surprise,
and all of a sudden I fell.
I thought I put my heart away,
Thought I hid it well.
Then you came along,
and took it from it's shell.
Once again I'm left wide open,
Hoping not to break this spell.
I guess we'll have to wait and see,
For only time will tell.
My only request,
Don't shame this heart to hell.
Your eyes so gentle, so true, so blue.
A smile so tender, so loving, like you.
Your heart so caring, so open, so free.
A touch so warm, so sweet for me.
Your voice so sexy, so honest, so strong.
A love so rich, so pure, it's OURS.
I hear the words, but I can't believe them.
My head begins to spin, I scream.
I don't even recognize my own voice.
I scream again and begin to cry uncontrollably.
My head is violently spinning, grasping for other possibilities.
This can't be true, this can't be happening.
It's a lie, "please" tell me it's just a cruel joke.
I can't stop crying, my world is spiraling out of control.
My heart and mind are aching endlessly.
I'm starting to feel numb, I wander about in a daze.
I don't know what to do, I'm not sure what to think.
It's not fair, I didn't get to say I love you.
You didn't even say Good-Bye.
These two words are forever stuck in my head,
"Mangy's dead".
