Pain
as the knife slides through the flesh the pain seeps in it goes through the wound and down my have up my arms and all around it makes me wince. i think about all that led to this and some things ill miss but i know its better off this way that people will be happy with me outa the way the pain of my life comes into me as the essance of my life flows outa me i realize i have short moments left and all i think about is how much ill miss you. ill miss your laugh ill miss your cry ill miss you oh so much ill miss the way you smile and the way you talk i will miss argueing of the little stuff ill miss how you make me feel but wat ill miss the most is the way i used to make you feel how i could cheer you up at a moments notice and how i could make you happy by just holding you close. but now the memories start to fade as my mind gets weaker and weaker i still think of you with all my will i think about that time you tested my skill. as the blood flows free from my wrist i look at it and remember your kiss. my vision blurs and goes black but then i see you but nothing cept your back i run up and touch your shoulder and you disapear but i hear your voice begging me why i would do such a thing just to die why i would break my promise and end my life and i say cause you are my light and your not there so its all dark i was afraid so i got something sharp i sat in a cornor and cut my self hoping this would make me like myself but then you say that it didnt help that you will never forgive me for ending myself that i mean alot to you even if you dont show it but then all of a sudden you disapear. and i think i must be moving on so i get ready but theres nothing but black nothing at all just emptyness no heaven no hell not even wandering the earth theres nothing here so my mind sinks i realize what i have done and i was stupid better to see you from afar then not see you at all i sit there with nothing but my memories in the void traped for all eternity and this is where im forever stuck and this is my sad story and im truly fucked,