I hope you never feel
The constant wish to be somebody else.
I never thought that I would
Feel so low as to do this to myself.
And there's so many things
I didn't do that I wish I could've done,
But I can't live my life this way;
Apologies to everyone.
You brought me to this world and now
I've thrown it all right back at you.
I never meant to hurt you,
But this is what I had to do.
You know I always loved you,
And you gave me all you had to give,
So don't ever blame yourself:
I simply lost the will to live.
I know, with me, including you,
I'm killing some other people, too;
I lived my selfish life in vain
And gave you a lifetime full of pain.
Don't regret and don't remorse,
It's just how my life took its course;
I'm sorry, Dad, I'm sorry, Mom:
Believe me, you did nothing wrong.
I wish I didn't finish first;
I really wish I could have stayed.
I know the scars will linger on,
But over time, I'll fade away.
And someday, all of you will die,
Somewhere in the sands of time.
Just know that I'll be fine,
And this is no one's fault but mine.
