| Cards 7, 9, 11, 12 Represent the past. The influences from yesterdays that are affecting today. |
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| Health matters and contacts with hospitals and medical people. This is the Pylon of the carer and the healer. There is a tendancy to put others and their needs before our own. This also puts one in the position of being put into the position of a 'victim'. To be taken advantage of. The card shows that the caring nature attracted those that would take advantage of the querent, resulting in the querent being hurt. Possible abuse, if not physical, then mental and emotional; others playing games with querent. All this leads to current pain and mistrust, yet the need to help, to care and to trust fights against pass lessons. A conflict within that still continues. |
| Poorly defined relationships have brought about suffering, loss, and disenchantment. With the card above it can be seen that in the past you have been in romantic relationships and friendships where the feelings were not mutual, or, where boundries were crossed bringing pain to the relationships. Openness and trust with others was given freely, but not returned. This is probably a pattern that you have noticed. |
| Rebellion. If you were told to do something, it never was done, yet if asked the task would be carried out at once with great care. The card also speaks of a strong ego and a love of being loved. The problem being that you were put on a high pedestal by adoration and affection, and when the adoration and affection were taken back you had a long fall down. |
| A want and need for perfection without any room for compromise. A desire to have all desires and aspirations materialize as they were originally conceived without any flexibility. This, of course, goes with the ego. By refusing to compromise and be flexible one develops an all or nothing attitude, that often ends in nothing. A reed that will not bend can only break. |
| Wrap up. In the past there have been many relationships of all kinds that have ended in frustration and pain. You have been taken advantage of by those that you loved. Your trust has been betrayed. You give deeply of yourself, and most often what you offer is taken with very little given in return. This has led to a great deal of pain. To often you have been deceived by those that you trusted and loved. Either you or the other person would eventually want more from the relationship than was there. Often the "roles" and boundries were crossed adding to a confused relation more problems. All of this makes you not want to care, love or trust, but it is in your nature to do so. This creates an unbalance within you, even to this day. You have a strong ego and you do desire to be loved, but with the ego, and the amount that you give of yourself you often get crushed. You are often "in love" first, this allows others to deceive you, to make you believe that they are sincere, even when they are not. A person like this gives you attention, affection, and love, and you will take all that they offer, giving twice as much back. You get very wrapped in this, and then when they take their attention away you are hurt even more because of all you gave. Even though this is the past you still carry the scars and all they bring with you. The need for perfection, especially from yourself, and the unwillingness to bend and compromise has also caused pain to you. This is something that you may be working on, but have not yet overcome. |