The Story Of A Boy

Raised In Black Doomed To Die In Black

Vital Stats-

Birthday - 06/07/83

Zodiac Sign - Gemini

Gender - Male

Height - 5' 11"

Weight - 205 lbs

Hair Color - Brown with a bit of red highlights

Eye Color - Hazel

Marital Status - Pending

Fav. Color - Um Black or Dark Purple

Fav. Type of Music - mostly anything that gets my mood going

Fav. Movie - The Crow and Nightmare Before Christmas

Fav. Band - It's a duel between Razed In Black and Cradle Of Filth

Fav. Alcohol - Whiskey or Mikes Hard Lemonade

Fav. Quote - You.....your pissing me off and I am running out of places to hide the bodies

Well I guess mainly there isn't much to me so I will try to put some interesting stuff in here but why should I strive to be interesting. If I did that then I would only be trying to impress ppl and that's the most worthless act. For I believe that if you impress ppl by just being you, your alot better off. Basically I will just put my ideas and thoughts and some of my poetry and lyrics in here (by my lyrics I do mean my lyrics).

FREE MY MIND, FREE MY SOUL, END YOUR CONTROL

By ~ Dark ~

Woe oh earth and sky fledgling wings broken by the stained hands of the hidin evils. Senators all say they work for us but only want the power corrupt with greased palms. Everyone with eyes of empty lies. How many times must you make me sick pledging alliance to a horned god of hate. Of hate, malice, wrath, greed, sloth, lust, envy, and chaos. Leave my soul out of this leave me be you whore of the power. My fists are more powerful then you think. You can't keep me quite. I know your secrets. I know your evils, your unclean thoughts. I will wash my hands and finally gain forgiveness. Not by God not by the first brother, but by my own forgiveness. Shall I live. I will no longer be guided by your hands. Your hands will no longer taint my skin, no longer will they make me ill (you can't escape) I am no longer your child to rape I will triple the guard. I will take up my sword and hide my pain only to free the rest. You no longer control me (yes I do) you will never fill my sleep with your nightmares. I am free of your sickness. NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN (nooooooooo) NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER AGAIN. I AM FREE, I AM FREE OF YOUR CHAIN. GET YOUR HANDS OFF OF ME. I WILL CONTROL YOU NOW (no no not me I am the power, you can't kill me) MUAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH I AM THE POWER THE HORNED ONE IS A FAKE I AM GOD TASTE MY REVENGE.............AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Monday Sept/02/2002  - 2:50 AM

Well I said I would write my feelings but I can't write SH*T but thats how I feel I have been feeling like this for 2 days now good things should be happening but they aren't well Susie will be here the 13 of this month finally I will get to see her in person this should help me sort out all my feelings and show me where to go from here. I mean it should be so easy to figure out but it's not.I guess I will type up what has happened so that ppl who are out of the loop or that don't know me will understand. It should be simple but I know it won't be cuz I am gonna have to be careful what I write. For some of it my hurt a few ppl in the end but hopefully they will see the good. So I will start from the top. First off there was Shaunna man she is sweet pretty and down right interesting (even though she says she is a nerd or a dork I find her interesting) it started out simple we talk over the phone I was hoping soon she would be here. No such luck after a long time of waiting the shit hit the fan and this gurl Dani had come into the picture. She was my beautiful english angel and I am serious I did love and I think still do love her. But anyways I left Shaunna for her. Now leave it to me to f**k up again with Dani this time I screw up and I couldn't face her. Then this beautiful maiden with wings as pure white as mine came in and she showed me Love with nothing expected. Nothing holding her back taking a chance I didn't want to. We are friends before lovers cuz we started as friends now I didn't want to take the chance we might end up breaking up and hateing each other. But she said who said I will ever leave u. That opened my eyes and gave me the power and I am now taking that chance cuz..... I do believe we will be together for ever me and her I mean she loves me more the anyone. I just hope I don't screw up again. This is what has been running threw my head tonight and I am sick and the day she gets here is not to far off. I seriously think I will lose my virginity (for those of you who didn't know ur probably like what :O ) I think she is the one I mean. She makes me want to be a father I want to join her in raising her kid I don't know why but I am drawn to her and I can't leave. There is no way in hell that I could ever run out of love or just stop loving her. But I think I will enter the world of full manhood lol sometime with in the five days she is here. I don't know but actually I don't care I just can't wait to feel her in my arms. The soft touch of her lips against mine. Thats all I want and need. Most ppl don't believe me but then again these ppl barely know me. Anyways I need sleep and I hope this all works out.

~Dark~

09/05/02

Enter The Black Rose

Well it seems I have found what has been plauging me. I found my malfunction. The nightmares that I have had finally make sense. For those of you that know this will be an old story but I will repeat it for those who don't know. Everynight pretty much I have the same nightmare always starts and ends the same. Me and some woman stand on a balcony it seems to be our wedding night (I think it is a symbol of closeness more then the fact that me and her are in wedlock) from the way we are dressed. We stand there holding each other on this balcony that over looks the fields the home of the Asier (the land of the gods Asier = The Race of Goddess and Gods in norse myth). Then she pulls away as if I had done something wrong. As I look at her I notice th tile on the floor it is white and black checkered (I was told this is a symbol of balance). Then the black starts to mass into a shapeless figure behind her it then reaches around her throat and wraps a hand like object around her neck the it swiftly pulls it away. She stands there gasping then her skin on her throat where the figures hand was starts to split open and blood spills forth. The black mass then trys to consume her lifeless body then scream for it to go away I don't want it here. It stops then goes back to black checkers on the floor. I hold her lifeless body in my arms and scream cursing the gods then I unsheathe my dagger and impale my self.

Ok now with that said. I feel that this means that my black void that is inside me the part of me I hide deep beyond the sight of everyone but myself. Destroys the relationship and them as well then after I have quote unquote "F**KED UP" I start to regret and the punish myself for my act now the black mass is that void in side me and the fact that it masses off the floor is an sign of unbalance in my life that the darkness is slowly consuming me. So I have finally decided something.

(here comes the feel good moment, dun dun dunnn *camera zooms in*) I am taking my life into my own hands the things I want to happen I will make happen not matter the cost to myself  (and to a few others depends if they're on my sh*t list) in the words someone I find to be intelligent "This is my story, It will go my way, or it ends here!!" so basically I have decided once and for all that unless something unforeseen happens I will be with my baby for along long long long long long long long long long long long long long time :D (if she is reading this I am sure it will make her happy) so yep I am now freeing my self of what has held me captive for so long. Yippy yes change of subject go to another link unless there is more updates below and why are you still reading this stop reading. I am not typing anything else interesting. Stop reading grrr you ppl why, why must you keep reading................fine I won't type anymore I swear I am gonna quit typing grrr your mean :P  

hey why you still reading this is very small type it fine print why for you wish to read it jeeez ur life must be boring god I am glad I have something of a life unlike you lol j/k...........ok stop reading ahhhhhh fine.............