Not Her, But you. **************** By Stephni Warner April 2000 I came from war Despondent and alone The wish for life All but gone You sent her To me unbidden Asking that Which was forbidden You taste Of fine mulled wine Filling all the corners Of my mind Twas not her But you ************************************* You show me What can be done When mind and body Act as one You keep me fulfilled Your mind and soul As a deep pool Stilled You help calm me In the night Your passion gentle Yet showing your might Twas not her But you ********************************* Master Father Demon Lover You who Each night Led me to Greater heights Blood and passion Wrestle as one At each dawning Of the new day sun Twas not her But you **********End Part 1******** You left us For a time Perhaps to taste Another’s wine Soon after I found One whose love of God Was sound Her arguments And fasts Left images Which would last Twas not her But you ******************************** I came to her And spoke of fate She spoke to me Of others hate How could God exist Asked I How could he not Was her reply What of this killing And the death Tis our doing When all is said Twas not her But you ******************************** I returned to her 'Pon learning her fate Hoping to reach her 'Fore twas to late To free her I sought She refused my gift So all was for naught She goes with great courage To martyrdom by fire A part of me goes with her As I watch them light the bier Twas not her But you ***********End Part 2********* I returned to My Sister lover friend I thought she would stay Till the end Nights of passion Days of bliss But there was something That we did miss Though we Loved each other We found we each Missed our other lover Twas not her But you ********************************** She was all That I could hope for But in the end I needed more In sensing this My sister Lover After time Left me for another For a time I did Cry like the rain And showed mankind My full disdain Twas not her But you *********************************** You returned then To my side Bringing comfort Along with pride We return To the ways of old Hunts of passion Love so bold Something is missing I now find Your love to be Other than kind Twas not her But you ************End Part 3*********** I soon begin To seek my own life One which would soon Lead to strife Artisans Writers Musicians Poets I work with all To learn and grow Seeking life Beyond the pall Twas not her But you ************************************ Art and knowledge Has become my balm That which keeps My spirit calm You returned Then Wishing to be A family again I cannot return To that Which has Been spurned Twas not her But you ************************************* No longer Father Lover Brother You have become Master and other My keeper To be No matter what It may mean to me Killing those who Disagree Pushing me Even further from you Twas not her But you *********End Part 4******** I made a vow No more killing of just Killing only the guilty If kill I must I return For a time Taking that Which was not mine Coming to regret This decision Made With such precession Twas not her But you ************************************ To return to my vows I seek the sun Thinking if I regain this Then I will have won Fighting the evil Which exists in us all Believing any Who would answer my call Suffering pain And agonies untold In my attempts To leave your fold Twas not her But you *********************************** Yet you came Time and again To rescue me From sin Be it science or magic That I would try You would rescue me From my pride You would push and prod Possessive as ever Angered when I cry Never Twas not her But you *********End Part 5****** To find myself Awash with strangeness Not knowing Where this place was Memory has fled Making knowledge Of past crimes Dead She comes To me then Only saying She is my friend Twas not her But you *************************** You say The night Is ours Is my birthright I find myself pulled By two sides Each saying The other lies Each only Veiled truths say But it I whose price In pain must pay Twas not her But you ************************************ You hold out Your hand As one would To a drowning man You return to me That which was lost Saying for once There is no cost My tail is a long one I’m afraid But I’ve plenty of time Forever they say Twas not her But you *************End Part 6********* She has returned One you thought dead After the taking of Her pretty head Daughter Mother One who wished to be Your lover Killing her rescuer And taking his head Delivering it up To you in her stead Twas not her But you ********************************** Getting you blamed For her kill Which only adds To her thrill Arrested and questioned By your son Added to the insult Of what she has done To your knees You will be Watching your precious Community flee Twas not her But you ********************************** Those that would By your side stay Must be the first To go away You r precious little Community Shall be the First to see 'Pon them She shall vent To show you exactly What she meant Twas not her But you ************End Part 7******* She used another As a goat to a lion Attacking as I Attended the dying She left me for dead With visions Dancing In the color red Pleasure of death Pleasure of pain Pleasure of torture Again and again Twas not her But you ********************************* I fight with the strength You gave to me Using it To make me free With freedom came Knowledge Of your own Pain Hoping to arrive in time To save my sire Lover From his daughter mother Twas not her But you ***************************** She has you believing That I am gone Has you ready to Follow along I arrive in time To take her first ‘For she drains you To slack her thirst Together we Prepare her bier To finally free her soul With fire Twas not her But you ***********End Part 8******** We return To each other’s side Bringing comfort Along with pride No longer Master and other We are now Father lover brother I show you What can be done When mind body and soul Act as one Twas not her But you ************************************* You keep me fulfilled Your mind and soul As a deep pool Stilled I give you energy To continue on To live each life To learn new songs We teach each other What is true in life We aid each other In times of strife Twas not her But you *********************************** Though fight we shall With the coming tide We now have learned To one another abide We calm each other In the night Our passions gentle Yet filled with might You of fine mulled wine I of honey and spice Together renew Our love of life Twas not her But you ***************Fini*************