They married and for a short time things were good and she was happy and so was her children. But she still was unable to open completly up for all her anger, hurt and ugly feelings of the past were still there inside her. And she could not express what she was feeling even to herself so how could she tell others of her feelings. And to hide her true feelings she lashed out at the ones who loved her the most, which made it hard for them to understand what she was going thru. And in a short time the house was in a turmoil, a state of confusion. He got to the point that he thought he was no good and that his love was dead for her and the children. So he left her and them and swore one day he would be back. For deep in his heart he still loved her but was dissapointed not just in her but in himself as well. But as he walk away he told himself over and over one day I will return.
So once again she saw the pain in her childrens eyes and decided never again will she open up to let anyone hurt her or them. Even thou she knew in her heart that all this pain was not anyone's fault, she still felt like she was no good for anyone especially her children.
So we now find her looking out the window daydreaming of the love she wanted at one time. She crys silent tears and her heart aches for something that she needs so badly. She stays in her little space in her world.
She dreams of the man who she knows she loved but was not able to show him because of her fears. And her dreams is all she wants, isn't that what a lady is to do.............dream.
