Shedding skin and I've been picking
Scabs again
Im down digging through my old muscles
Looking for a clue
I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could have been
I've been wallowing in my own confused
And insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in
I wanna feel the changes coming down
I wanna know what I've been hiding in.
My shadow
Change is coming through my shadow
My shadow's shedding skin
I've been picking my scabs again
I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could have been
I've been wallowing in my own chaotic
And insecure delusions
I wanna feel the change consume me
Feel the outside turning in
I wanna feel the metamorphasis
And cleansing I've endured within
My shadow
Change is coming
Now is my time
Listen to my muscle memory
Contemplate what I've been clinging to
Forty-six and two ahead of me.
I choose to live and to
Lie, kill and give and to
Die, learn and love and to
Do what it takes to step through
See my shadow changing,
Stretching up and over me
Soften this old armor
Hoping I can clear the way
By stepping through my shadow
Coming out the other side
Step into the shadow
Forty-six and two are just ahead of me
Uh Huh.. that's the way it is
Chill Out
Whatcha yellin for
Lay back
It's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You would see
I like you the way you are
When we're drivin in your car
And you're talking to me one on one
But you've become
Somebody else, round everyone else
Watchin your back
Like you cant relax
You're tryin to be cool, you look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why'd you have to go make things so complicated
I see the way you're acting like y ou're somebody else
Get's me frustrated
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get and turn it into
Honestly promise me Im never gonna find you fakin
Oh no
You come over unannounced
Dressed up like you're somethin else
Where you are and where it's at you see
You're makin me laugh out
When you strike your pose
Take off all your preppy clothes
you know you're not foolin anyone when you've become
Somebody else round everyone else
Watchin your back like you cant relax
You're tryin to be cool but you look like a fool to me
What's holding up is a mirror
But what's singing songs is a snake
Looking to turn this piss to wine
They're both totally void of hate
But killing me just the same
The snake behind me hisses
What my damage could have been
My blood before me begs me
Open up my heart again
And I feel this coming over like a storm again
Considerately
Venomous voice, tempts me,
Drains me, Bleeds me,
Leaves me cracked and empty
Drags me down like some sweet gravity.
The snake behind me hisses
What my damage could have been
My blood before me begs me
Open up my heart again
And I feel this coming over like a storm again
I am too connected to you
Slip away, to fade away.
Days away I still feel you
Touching me, changing me,
And considerately killing me.
Without the skin,
Beneath the storm,
Under these tears
The walls came down.
And the snake is drowned and
As I look in his eyes,
My fear begins to fade
Recalling all of those times.
I could have cried then.
I should have cried then.
And as the walls come down
And as I look in your eyes
My fear begins to fade
Recalling all of the times
I have died
and will die.
It's alright
I dont mind.
I am too connected to you
Slip away, to fade away.
Days away I still feel you
Touching me, changing me.
And considerately killing me.
The face of your own stability
Suddenly look away
Leaving you with the dead and hopeless?
Eleven and she was gone
Eleven is when we waved good-bye
Eleven is standing still
Waiting for me to free him by coming home.
Moving me with a sound
Opening me within a gesture
Drawing me down and in
Showing me where it all began
Eleven
It took so long to realize that
You hold the light that's been leading me back home.
Under a dead ohio sky.
Eleven has been and will be waiting
Defending his light, and wondering.
Where the hell have I been?
Sleeping, lost and numb
So glad that I have found you
I am wide awake and heading home.
Hold your light, eleven
Slipping back into the gap again
Im alive when you're touching me
Alive when you're shoving me down
But I'd trade it all for a bit of piece of mind.
Put me somewhere I dont wanna be
Seeing someplace I dont wanna see
Never wanna see that place again
Saw that gap again today
As you were begging me to stay.
Managed to push myself away, And you, as well.
If, when I say, I may fade away like a sigh if I stay.
You minimize my movement anyway
I must persuade you another way
There's no love in fear
Staring down that hole again.
Hands upon my back again
Survival is my only friend
Terrified of what may come
Just remember I will always love you
Even as I tear your throat away
But it will end no other way
By inch by loaded memory
'Til one and one are one, eleven
So glow, child, glow.
Im heading back home.
Choke this infant here before me
What is this but my reflection?
Who am I to judge and strike you down?
But you're
Pushing and shoving me
You still love me but you pushit on me.
Rest your trigger on my finger
Bang my head upon the fault line
Take care not to make me enter
'cause if I do we both might disappear
But you're pushing me, shoving
me.