| As I see It Explainations and Observations of Hidden Disabilities |
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| Is Life Too Hard? Someone in an online depression forum I belong to asked this question. Here is my answer. I can only speak for myself. Life is too complicated and stressful for me and I don�t have the two most important things necessary to cope - energy and motivation. The reason I have no motivation is because I see only the bigger picture of life as it is in our society today. A hundred years ago we grew our own food, built our own homes, made our own clothes, fabrics were made sturdier so they lasted much longer. So a shirt, for instance lasted years instead of just months. Food, shelter, clothing. These are basics of life. Most of us don�t have the skills to do these things for ourselves anymore. We need to rely on others for these commodities now. Our society is based on money and if you don�t have a job you�re scr*wed. I cannot work at this point in my life because any kind of stress is too much for me. I can�t handle even the smallest of problems. When faced with an issue I just want to hide under the covers and never wake up. Medication has only helped me as far as crying - I�m now able to speak about my problems without bawling my eyes out and getting a huge lump in my throat so that I literally cannot talk. However, it can't change my feelings about society, corrupt politics and the false sense of freedom we think we have. I have cut myself off from friends and family because I just don�t have the energy to speak in person to people. Sounds strange, I know, but that�s why I like email. You can take your time. Even a short message takes me a long time to compose. My thoughts are jumbled and I often cannot think of the specific word I need to explain myself. That�s another basic. If you can�t communicate with people you�re once again scr*wed. I ask my psychiatrist about this and he has no answers - no one does. As for having a belief in a higher power (whatever your idea of this may be) I do believe there is a greater power than us out there. I�m sure that things are able to get better and I�ve asked for help from the collective consciousness out there. But without energy all I can do is sit and hope. How long must I wait? |
| Is Life Too Hard? |
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