It apears that a certain person who i mentioned on my last entry on myspace has been reading my blog. I'd like to point out that I didn't mention their name, or go into any real detail, I could have been nasty and spiteful and named and slagged them off for all the world to see, but i didn't.

If it turns out she has been reading my blog, then it begs the question, why? I dont have a problem with her reading it, if i did i would have blocked her a long time ago, but i didn't. But i just don't understand why she would be interested in my blog, seeing as she has refused to speek to me since march!

Whilst i'm on the subject, i think i should make a few things clear....

 Who was it who called me virtually every night for months, sometimes at 2-3am in the morning. Hmmm could it be you? And who left there phone on 24 hours a day in case his friend couldn't sleep and needed someone to talk to at 3 in the morning. Could that be me? yes.

I was there for you when ever you needed me, i left my phone on and by my bed every night for months and let you wake me up in the middle of the night and spoke to you and never EVER complained. Because I cared.

Who was it who then after months of this decided she didn't want to talk to me anymore and said it was because I was being clingy and crowding you. Thats right, you again.

Who was it who felt guilty at your running up a huge phone bill, despite the fact i never forced you to do it. That would be me.

Who was it who after being made to feel guilty by his friend about her running up said phone bill, was then really hurt when this friend decided she was just going to stop talking to me for weeks. Me again. Are we starting to see a pattern here?

Who was it who 2 christmas's running has spent money he couldn't really afford on presents for you that has never given you because both years you have decided to pull your silent treatment trick on him. who isn't going to bother this year and will be spending his money on people who are more deserving? Me again.

Who has forgiven you time and time again? when after refusing to speak to me for weeks or months you decide you want to be my friend again. Who has had enough of your games and has decided for once he's going to stand up to you and not play anymore. Me.

I could go on all day like this, because to be honest the list is virually endless, but whats the point? I should have stood up to you a long time ago, maybe if i had you would have realised sooner that you couldn't treat me the way you did. But just because i didn't stand up to you, does not mean you had the right to do it.

I'm not saying there weren't times you were good to me, there were, otherwise i wouldnt have wanted to be your friend in the first place, but that doesn't excuse it. We have a lot in common and i honestly believe we could have been good friends for a long time. But I doubt that is possible any more, you have just hurt me to much and to often for me to trust you.

Theres a saying. "Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me." You have already fooled me at least twice, i'm and i'm not going to be made a fool of anymore.

I don't hate you, I never have, but i feel hurt and betrayed by you. I have been nothing but loyal and caring towards you since the day we met. I have defended you several times when people have slagged you off and said horrible things about you, and how have you repaid that loyalty?