| This has never really been easy for me, at least when I have to speak in front of a lot of people, I often feel bad or like less of a Christian because others seem to be a lot more at ease than I am. Like at camp when we had to give our testimonies, I was a nervous wreck, but any way...I became a Christian, or said that I was a Christian when I was only 6 years old. I�m not really sure if I was saved then or not, because it was hard for me to understand it completely. I got a lot of attention, and I remember liking that a lot, but a few years later I attended my first summer at Camp Living Water, and I have not doubted my salvation since that Summer, not that I haven't questioned things, just not my salvation. All throughout my life I have depended on God for my strength and he has been my confidant, I tell God things that I would not tell any one else, not even you...of course I guess he already knows. Since I was little both of my parents have been sick, my dad has had several maladies and with my mom it's mostly her heart. It has never been really easy to watch my parents suffer in illness and sickness, nor has it been easy to understand how God plans to use these obstacles in his plan. But I know that he does have a plan for my family and I. Sometimes it has been the knowledge of that that has kept me from being really sad about my parents. When I was 14 one of my best friends died from being shot accidentally (it's a pretty long story), that was a really hard time for me, because I felt useless, there was no way that I could make it better, no one could, no one but God any way. I even contemplated suicide for a short period of time after that, I guess you could say that I was slipping. But through a lot of prayer, and the constant company of friends, I pulled through, but I don't know what I would have done had it not been for God's never leaving me or forsaking me, I might not be here today. The greatest comfort that I have ever or will ever know, is that constant reassurance that no matter what, God will never leave me alone. He will be there when I need him, he listens when I talk to him, he cares about what I�m saying, and he never just pretends, like my friends and family do sometimes. I believe that if I had been the only person alive that he would have still sent His Son to die for me, just me. I do not think that there is anything special about me, but I am really glad that God did, and still does. |
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