11:34PM CDT, live from Sioux Falls, sarah's bedroom
everything is over. it's been four years since i updated in here, and that's far too long. everything has changed, everything has warped. some people have died. lots of things have died. friends, marriages, personalities, previously stable situations... ahhh, now we come to it.
at any rate, the vast levels to which things have changed can't even really be summed up right now. 4-5 years is really quite a long time.
beekie died.
sarah and jez got married, then separated.
we became regulars at a local pagan group and then we splintered away from them in a rather messy way. shit's been going down.
am i being a bit pessimistic? no... but the truth is that the last year and a half hasn't been a walk in the park. in many ways it's been the best thing to ever happen to us... in other ways, some of it is the worst. but, we know now that there is no such thing as "worst"... there are only the lessons handed to us by Fate in order for us to be reborn and evolve. so yes, yes... hail to The Discordian Order of the Flaccid Carrot, the U.U.S.S.C., the Church of the Insane Destruction, the S.F. Pagan Splinter Faction, The Line, The Triad, and the blessed Order of the Esoteric Chain. May we endure to the end. Aum Ha.
needless to say, i have gained in wisdom what i have lost in folly, by a thousand times. as it has been said before, the Fire has Eyes, and the Wheel of Fate has seen to it that i no longer struggle. i've embraced my destiny and everything that it means, all the sorrows and shadows included. now i can actually move upward.
so to actually run you down a list of the things that have happened would take all together too long. let's just say we've been marching down a blood red road, smashing opposition, shattering delusions, and burning all the way along. and we're no where near our destination.
we'll keep you posted.
-Lord Zab Cataclyzm