| i miss you more than i knew. (aug 28 2002) Distance. The distance between two people madly in love with each other definitely makes one's heart grow fonder. Both hearts actually. After having the greatest summer ever, the person that made it so great is away, but still here. Her name is Jennifer Marie, the apple of my eye, the reason I breathe, smile, cry, laugh, sob. The reason I'm around. We came into each other's lives while we were both a little wore out, but we rejuvenated one another's spirits, and made one another as happy as can be. She's done so much for me in 3 months; 14 weeks time where we let one another in, and brought each other so close to our hearts, that the idea of breaking us apart, leaving one another, is simply ludicrous. The way she smells, her funny faces, the way she says 'I Love You' ('I Wuv Oo',) everything she does just melts me. I get weak in the knees, and she makes me be strong. We do the same for each other, we complete one another. We make one another come to life. And that is the best thing: Jen lets me come alive. With her, I was finally comfortable showing someone the real me: a goofy, hyper 18 year old with a knack for Weezer, Jason Lee and Ed Norton movies, and Tostito's Bite Size Rounds. She's let me be, loves me for the person that I am. The one version, the real Rusty that not alot people ever saw. But ever since we got together, I let everyone see that Rusty, the real Rusty. And to my surprise, people love me for that Rusty. No longer am I the sad Rusty, the one who wore his heart on his sleeve, ready and willing for anyone to grab at it so I can feel whole. But now I am complete, my heart is in the safest of hands, and I know it will be for the longest of time. Yeah, Jennifer Marie is 100 miles away, but she'll always be with me. In my heart. taken from my journal entry in english 101 |