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| 11:02pm. October 28, 2001. Come On Rusty Stop Yer Crying Now Smev and Steph celebrating their 2 year anniversary this weekend .. Sarah and Saad are together .. Faith is with Neil .. I'm just bummed man. On the anniversary of Faith and I meeting, she finally hooks up with Neil. I'm happy for her. But, it makes me realize how hard it is to know she has someone else. I mean, yes I have accepted all of this, but still yearn for her somedays. Faith, yer not an asshole by letting me know your happy, that's great. I wish that I had someone .. I'm not desperate, I'm just missing the things that I love most. I'm waiting for them to come and find me, though I think some have, but I don't really have an interest in them. I've grown sick of this pain, but I might be better off alone for awhile. Like Matt says, who needs a bitch? (though he acknowledges in journalism class on 10/29/01 that he needs to invite the bitches over to scott's when his parents venture out of town in a few weeks .. ) Saad is continuously letting me know I am the sole reason Sarah asked him out. Yr welcome Saad, I'm happy for you two. You've liked her for so long, loved her, and now you get your chance. You are more deserving than anyone. (And Neil's a lucky son of a gun too to get to hold the hand of the greatest smiler on Earth) .. Lauren leaves me a message while at work today .. DC people got her annoyed, wants to chill. Let's. I've cried tonite. Boo hoo. But I do think that, slowly but surely, my heart is levitating in the direction of Amy. A member of the in the process Superdrag Fan Club that I'm running, we talk lots, and realize we might be right for each other. Bad things first: she lives in Texas, but might be popping up for a visit by year's end. she's a beaute, but I don't know if I can meet the game of "messing with Texas". We both like the Drag, and the Weez, and she's cute. If I'm not making sense tonight, it's probably cause I'm destracted by too many things. So I say now that for the rest of my life, I will search for someone just like you. |