| 04/07/01, pt.2 00:00pm. ,...And The Waiting Is The Hardest Part... Waiting for Ryan K (S-mev) to arrive to head out to the local theatre for the evening, thought I'd start up a later entry. It's really hard, you know? If I am to lose Faith for something my own fault then I'm gonna be in the worst bent out shape ever. I should've just said something about it before. If it were to come out of my mouth 3 days earlier when we were on the phone at 1am, everything would be ok, and my original journal plan for the 4th of July would've worked smoothly: Independce of the US celebrated, Rusty & Faith are back together. Guess not now .. it's all "up in the air" as I said in the poem of the same name.' Today at work, I compiled a new Top 5 list, check it out: Top 5 Rusty & Faith Songs 1 Blink-182:Wasting Time Faith got me into Blink, and bought me their Cheshire Cat CD for Christmas, and it featured this song. Very pretty, we actually at that time did what Mark Hoppus sang about in the chorus: "Sometimes I sit at home and wonder if she's sitting at home thinking of me and wondering if I'm sitting at home thinking about her, or am I just wasting my time." Yes that's all Faith and I ever did I guess. 2 The Pixies:Ana From another CD Faith bought me for the holidays.. at first I thought the opening line was "she's my Faith," making it our song for sure. Though when I got the CD and found lyrics inside, it was actually "she's my fave." Well that's the truth too, still is. Anyway pretty song nice laid back summertime vibe. Romantic indeed. 3 A Perfect Circle: 3 Libras ..It's just because Faith said it has to be the greatest song to make love to. :( *tear* :( 4 Everclear: Good Witch Of The North I won't even go there. 5. Superdrag: Nothing Good Is Real Now yes, it isn't really a Rusty and Faith song, it just fits the mood at the moment. If everything falls together like it might as well, then it'll be the truth. Another note: Brewer L.K. email's Barnett F.V. makes it worse, by saying she still likes me, confusing Barnett. What to do, what to do ... I guess in essence, you can guess that she is probably just kicking Barnett out and wedging herself in, well it's not working. I'm not letting it go without a fight. |
| 21:58pm. Just home from the movies and the fireworks. Scary Movie 2 was the shit, I don't wanna say much .. (Top 5 Best Scenes from Scary Movie 2). After that as we drove out of the parking lot, myself and Smev and his girlfiend VonStaden S saw fireworks from ovrertop the mecca they call Wal*Mart, so we headed over and watched them, with a nice view, by a nearby factory parking lot. It was kinda sad, though; looking at Smev and Steph happy, watching the fireworks all but brought a tear to my eye, as I don't know the future between myself and Faith. Smev kept on cracking the joke on how her name is so easy to be a pun, "I have yet to lose my Faith", that's one example. Who knows what will happen. But for now, I guess that is all. Erased/Over/Out 22:02pm. |
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