| Diary of a Beachbum it's alright to be alone |
| One: 'Next' 21 jul 02 - past midnight Arrived at the beach this afternoon feeling great for few hours of sleep and a 5 hr car ride. At this moment I'm alone at the apartment, for the rest of the family is out on the boardwalk still, I guess. After arriving around 3pm, we walked the boards and I met up with my cousins to hang with them for their last night in town. Great time with them: mini golf, walking the board, chit chats, and walking the beach at dusk. As the day grew closer to night, I started to think of Jennifer and I started to feel crappy. Of course I'm sad without her here, but I need to enjoy myself. I just saw so much here already I'd love to show Jen, little things that only us would get, and a walk on the moonlit shore. Ryan and Terri couldn't believe she didn't come along,. I know I sadly can. But there was one thing that hit me hardest: seeing an elderly couple walking with their arms around one another like Jen and I do. I just know that'll be the girl I do that to when I'm that age. Ryan and I got to have a chat later on, him giving me some advice, and he coudl just tell that I have a winner, who Rob just thinks Ryan likes cause of her taste in music. His reply: 'she's a nice girl!'. 'Thanks Dad'. This is weird, but I hate being alone here. I know they're ok, but yeah. You just don't feel safe, or as safe as you would or should. Your aren't at home, yr away from yr normal environment, and you just feel out of place when you are not with the other 5 people you are vacationing with. I guess it's that I'm surprised my mom is still out and it's 1230, well you're on vacation. I, for one, was tired and headed back thinking they'd be here, but they aren't. No answer on Jen's cell phone, so it's down to me, TV, and this pen and paper. Two: 'Attack of the Jellyfish (no.2)' / 'Zero From Outerspace' / 'Jellyfish (No.7)' 24 jul 02 - past midnight (again) Past couple days have seemed like eons, it's only Wednesday and it feels like it should be Thursday. By the time I arrive home, it will feel like 74 years have gone by in 7 days time. The last 3 days haven't been so bad; sand, sun, fun at the beach. Chit chat to Jen on the phone, smiles and tears came from that. Will be so happy to see her the minute I get home Saturday. Sunday afternoon consisted of the beach, taking in some ocean water and some light sun poisoning, itches now and then. Happy conversation with Jen on the phone after that. Monday was us talking, me very sad, cried afterwards. Later trip to nearby Ocean City, found cheap copy of Tom Petty's She's The One for $8. Had to replace it. Great great CD. Makes me want to track down Echo. And today/yesterday/Tuesday was a return to the beach and another happy chat with Jennifer. Wish she could come here for a few days, but she isn't. Doesn't matter, for we'll have time and many trips like this, just me and Jen/2 of us in the future. Don't really know what else to say. Vacation is 1/2 way goine I guess. Collecting goodies for her to take back that I know she'll absolutely love. I could spit in a cup, and she'd love it. She'd find it gross, but probably love it, for it's from me. I'm thankful to have Jennifer in my life. She's definitely the greatest thing that ever happened to me, and I'm so much more happier with her around. When I get home from here, we have 3 weeks left til she goes back to school ---> my how summer has fown by, probably because I've had the best summer ever with Jennifer. Like I said in this card I got her before I left this week: 'Now that is love -- when one gets jealous of another's fecal matter.' It's true, I do hate it when she goes to the bathroom. 2 minutes less that I am not with her. I'd settle with her as soon as I could, everything about her is magical: absolutely perfect. There's one reasion I believe Jennifer's the one. July 5, 2001. She was the Weezer girl at Wal*Mart, the one blown away by my hug, that never made it to Rusty land, but found her wat there one night in May, and she is here. Here to stay. Three: 'Rusty makes a Weezer CD' 24 jul 02 - after 1pm sometime Now, to make a mix CD is a tough thing, I get anal and retarded about it. And when it comes to making a Weezer CD, it's worse. I used to have this pretty standard tracklisting, but I shake it up like Weezer do with their setlists. And since I'm going to see them Saturday evening, I'm making a special mix for the trip to Merriweather. I'm putting on a few of G's favorites ('Getchoo,' 'Say It Ain't So',) songs Jen likes ('Take Control,' 'Across The Sea,') and my favorites (pick 20). I've been going with 24 songs, 6 from each album, but with 23 demos for album 5, I',m half in the mood toc ut songs down, and insert a few of those. Ok, I'll get started now. |