~ Empty ~
Written: 04/20/06

I try to hold back my tears
To shake all of my fears
I feel my heart
Breaking apart

I can't let my husband see
Just how bad this is hurting me
More than anything, I wanted a baby
And I still keep hoping for maybe

Maybe there is still some hope
I know there isn't, I guess I just need to cope
If only someone could take away the pain I feel
I just can't believe any of this is real

I suddenly feel so empty inside
And I wonder why I ever tried
Just to feel this way
What can anyone say?

People tell me its no big deal
Yet I wonder if I'll ever heal
I guess it'll be a little easier each day
So maybe someday I'll be okay

~ Familiar Feelings ~
Written: 10/18/05

I'm sitting here now, cold, and feeling alone
I'm back to feeling like a dog without a bone
It seems no one will ever accept me
Unless I change into what they want me to be
So I guess I'll die alone the way I am
And never win the love of any man

People keep telling me it'll happen someday
But I'm not sure I want it anymore anyway
I've gotten so used to always being alone
Its gotten familiar, its all I've ever known
This is getting to be far too much
I feel now that what I need is a crutch

I want to be loved but in a way I don't
These feelings will never change, I know they won't
I guess I'll always live in pain
Unless I decide to inject air into my veins
I wonder who might actually care
Of the way I feel, nobody is aware

~ Things I'm Proud To Say ~
Written: 12/12/05

For some time, I felt unloved by you
And it seemed that all we did was argue
It hurt 'cause of how much you mean to me
I didn't think you'd ever be able to see
But it feels so good to know
And now I walk around with a glow

You made my heart stop dad
I cried but not because I was sad
I've finally become what I always wanted to be
At last, I am your little girl, its hard to believe
I've spent my life trying to make you proud
And to take away all your doubt

You know I always wanted to be like you
And I'm proud to say I am now, it's true
Everything you ever did stayed with me
I used it to become what I wanted to be
It makes me proud to hear people say
That I'm just like you in so many ways

Merry Christmas, I love you daddy
This will be the best one yet for me
For you've made my dream come true
So this is my way of saying thank you
You are still my hero for the man you are
And you take up the most room in my heart

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