7:30am, 13/11/99 Tell the truth... everything you want will come out of it... even if it doesn't seem like it will at first. I learnt this the hard way... by hiding it. No, I don't mean that I hid the truth and what I wanted didn't come out... Sensitive topic, yes; one I don't think about, no.
This is actually a hard topic to discuss, because I am certain that out of my pages, this is the one with the theories I believe the most; that also makes it harder to put my thoughts into exact words which won't make you think on any other line... but I'll try...
7:30am, 13/11/99, UPDATED 4/3/00, 2:40 I do not believe in Fate, as in the stereotypical definition of fate. I do not believe in those corny "it was fate that they should meet" things etc etc etc; but I do believe in things happening for a reason. If you talk to me enough, or i'm giving you advice, you might find that I often say something to the effect of: "do whatever happens" or, to use a very corny phrase "follow your instincts". I might like to quote the Phantom Menace on this one and say "feel, don't think; use your instincts" (or something like that). As corny as it sounds, I've generally found that it works, although sometimes it's hard to differentiate between the "what you should do" voice and the "obsessive narrow-minded must-do-at-all-costs" voice...
7:30am, 13/11/99 Tell the truth... everything you want will come out of it... even if it doesn't seem like it will at first. I learnt this the hard way... by hiding it. No, I don't mean that I hid the truth and what I wanted didn't come out...
What I mean is, I hid the truth - as in, I didn't tell my parents something for ages and ages, but I had to tell them some time or other; when I finally told the truth - because I would have to break the news to them at some stage - I only told part of the truth, because I didn't want them to yell at me for the other parts... bad move... Ok, so here they are, with the wrong impression of me, because they only get part of the truth and that part doesn't sound so good on its own.... they let me do whatever it is I wanted, with heaps of conditions attached - I asked for that one, by not telling them in the first place. finally, I decide to tell all and face the consequences. nothing. they even think better of me for it . not because "they were glad I told the truth" but as in, the bits I didn't tell them made the whole impression really different, better. the occasion comes around, and because of spontaneous reflexes, the parents decide to disregard all the conditions they had earlier imposed - now isn't that a happy ending? You've told the truth, parents love you, and you get what you want. Smiles =) all round! wahoo!
12:30pm, 13/11/99 Religion is a hard topic to talk about; it is also very difficult to think about. We all know, it is all too easy to say you are a Christian or a Buddhist or whatever, but not act it. But that's not what I'm talking about. It is also very difficult to really believe - you might want to believe, but your heart does not believe. I long for the day I can actually say I believe, and really really believe...
12:30pm, 13/11/99 I'm sorry, but I have to say, I do not believe anything about astrology or the stars or horoscopes etc etc etc... I do not mean to offend those who do; just stating my opinion. I mean, despite all my ideas of fate and purpose (of course, not in the stereotypical sense, like I said earlier), I do not believe the stars tell us anything... I decided to prove the obvious: in 1997, Melbourne Cup day came around as it always does on the first Tuesday of November; I decided to look up the horoscopes and see what they told us about selecting a winner. I lined up about five horses, of a field of approximately 25, which the stars had told us to bet on; the result: one horse ended up getting put down with a broken leg; the other four finished within the last 7 of the field of 25 - sorry for those who followed the stars and bet in that way.
10:15pm, 25/11/99 I think it's sad when people think about the various values and beliefs that they have (not necessarily in religion, though I might use that as an example), that they are absolutely convinced that their path is the right one. Conviction, yes!, is a good thing; obstinacy and wilful blindness is not. There is always the possibility that you are wrong. Always. Never forget that. If you wilfully block you mind to the possibilities then you are a lost cause - nothing anybody says will make you moderate or modify your ideas. And it is all over.
8:52am, 20/4/00 Instinct is good - people might call it instinct, fate, God's voice, Allah's voice, Buddha's voice, WHATEVER, but it all comes to the same. Feelings will never be wrong - differentiating between feeling and obsession is the difficult part. The only negative is that it's hard to reason, to explain why something is done, especially when logic can't be applied. Some people say they follow instinct when they just follow obsession. be careful. but believe me, it works.
10:30am, 6/7/00 I once heard this guy preaching, and he said that he didn't believe God condoned cancer, and that it was a miracle when He provided a supernatural healing or simply a doctor, or some new treatment. I've been thinking about the first bit. Diseases are one of the biggest causes of death in the world; war and natural disasters are the other ones. In order for the population to remain at a sustainable level, there must be death, ie disease, war, natural disasters. So, could cancer be some other invention of God's, just as reproduction is for the sustainance of the human race? But then again, no-one died in Paradise.