| Everyone has had one of those times where they want to go back and do something over. Wishing they had handled a situation better. I always feel like that. There's so many things about myself that I hate. I'm not talking like my hair or anything I'm talking about how I act. I often catch myself whining over something and it's the dumbest reason. Or maybe I'm moping when I should just shut up and stop being a wuss. Or maybe I had a sudden loss of brain cells and I went into blonde mode. Mostly though, it's when I'm snapping and screaming for like no reason. IN other words-SuperBitch. I have these mood swings that I can't even explain. My mood swings must make people looking from the other side think I'm fake. Like maybe I'm not really depressed, or maybe I'm not really that clueless to the subject. I guess it seems impossible for someone to go from using big words to saying "huh what?" And it's probably weird how I can seem so upset but laugh the next minute. Or how at first it's all fun and games and the next I'm pissed as hell as you better run before I bite your freakin head off. I don't even understand it or like it for that matter. I try to control my mood swings, but sometimes it feels like they're just unchangeable things about myself. I guess I'll always answer that "Would you be friends with you if you were someone else?" questions with Absolutely Not. |
