About arani

Painting by Jonathon Earl Bowser, used with permission

No, the image above is not arani, even though the figure does bear certain resemblances to her. It was painted by one of her favorite artists. More of his work can be seen by clicking on the link at the bottom of this page.

arani has been a slave, trained in the Gorean way, since early 1999. she offers here a short description of her journey into slavery, so that the reader may come to know her a little better, and to understand why she was moved to create this website. arani will state here that she has gone by different names in the past (all but one given to her by her Owners), and will present them here so there can be no doubt that she is whom she represents herself to be.

this one began her journey in 1998, when she obtained her first computer. Prior to that time, she had no knowledge of the world of BDSM (other than the caricature portrayed in the media), and certainly no knowledge of Gor. she began to wander around in the adult chat rooms, finding herself amazed at the variety of sexual preferences to be found there. In a way, she was like a child in a candy store, sampling at will while still in the safety of her own home. One day she stumbled into a BDSM role-playing room and watched the interaction going on there. her first thought was, "What fun!" So, she created a dominant persona for herself, Mistress Dusty, and a submissive persona, jamaharon1. (The latter is a reference to an alien sexual rite from the TV show "Star Trek.") this one began to play in the BDSM rooms, not understanding at all what the lifestyle was all about, until a very wise man scolded her, telling her that she needed to learn more about the world she had ventured into before actually trying to become a part of it. So, she began to read and talk to others, and to learn. she also began to feel the beginning of some unfamiliar stirrings within herself.

After a time, Mistress Dusty collared a submissive, a very sweet man whom she loved dearly. But their happiness was not to last long, and the relationship ended due to a number of reasons. In her grief, Dusty turned to a Master she had become friends with, and the two of them fell deeply in love. One day, the Master told her that He was going to embrace the Gorean way, and asked her to be His slave. By this time, her heart was already His, and she was more than willing to make her body His as well. So, the Master named this one lovely_jama_K. jama was frightened, so very frightened, by this new world she found herself in. But it was what the Man she loved wanted, and so she struggled to learn and be the slave He wanted her to be. she learned about Gor, and she learned how to serve on-line. As time passed, her love for her Master grew even stronger, as did His for her.

Then, the Master decided that He would rather have jama at His side than at His feet. So He freed her and made her His Free Companion, ordering her to take the name Kotyks_LadyJama. Jama was happy to do His bidding, and proud to be at His side. By this time, He had opened a Gorean tavern on line, and she did her best to help Him in this endeavour. she helped Him find tavern slaves, and helped to train them. she took two male slaves of her own, training them and nurturing them as well. She continued to learn about Gor, and about how to please this Man that she loved so desperately. While she did not realize it at the time, she was still a slave to Him in her mind. She saw the tavern slaves serving Him in the way She longed to do, and became unhappy. She and the Master began to quarrel.

It was then that the Master decided to collar Jama once again, naming her songbird_K. While this was done as a punishment, the new slave was incredibly happy. This is what she had wanted, but had not even realized it. song embraced her slavery, and yearned to learn even more how to please her Master. The two began to meet off line, and an engagement ring was given as well as a collar. But, as happy as they were, they had problems which eventually proved to be insurmountable. song was stripped of her personal collar and put in a tavern collar, becoming songbird_KGI. Still she strove to please her Master, but the relationship was doomed. song begged release from her Master, one of the hardest things she had ever done.

The now-unowned slave was terrified and grief-stricken. In her fear she ran to another Master and begged His tavern collar. A truly good Man, He granted her this wish, and named her arrah_SLI. In her gratitude, arrah strove to serve this Master the best she knew how, and struggled to improve her knowledge and her abilities. she grew to love this Man who had taken her in and given her a home. she began to develop this website that you are now visiting. But, they both knew that this collar was to be a temporary one. she longed to wear a personal collar again, this time in the off-line world. Both she and her Master knew that when she had healed sufficiently, and had found a Man she could once again serve with all of her heart, she would move on. To this day, she still loves Him and feels an immense gratitude for His help and support during a time when she so badly needed it.

One day arrah joined a Christian BDSM message board, and began to interact with the other members. A Master e-mailed her privately, and He and arrah struck up a correspondence. From the very first this Master, Clampius_Areilius, began to take charge. He started by instructing arrah as to how she should address Him, and then slowly began to give her more and more commands. she knew immediately that this was a true Master, who knew what He wanted and was not afraid to go after it. And it soon became clear that what He wanted was her. But, while He commanded this slave with no uncertainty, he took the time to nurture her and lead her, and teach her. One day they were speaking on the phone, and He said, "Well, I guess I could collar you." Not "Do you want to be my slave?" He made a clear statement of His desires, but He also made it clear that this was not a decision that was going to be forced on the slave. If she had indicated reluctance, He would not have pushed the issue. But there was no issue to push. In her heart, she was already His. she gratefully accepted this gift He offered her, and proudly knelt at His feet as He put His collar on her on May 6, 2000.

For the first month that He owned this slave, her Master named her simply slave_girl_CsA. Then He changed her name to the one she wears now, arani_CsA. she proudly wore this new name, and strove to continue her growth. she eagerly learned how to please this Man, listening carefully to His instruction. While we were still apart, and communicated primarily by e-mail and the phone, we worked toward the day when we could be together. Visits were arranged, and were successful. Finally, in February of 2002, arani was granted the privilege of living with her Master and serving Him in the real world. she now sleeps in His bed (when He allows her to), cooks His meals, and does everything that He commands her to. He continues to teach her about her slavery, and she works very hard to learn her lessons. He has told her that she will be His until she sees His "cold dead body," and she is blissfully content.

On November 8, 2003, arani was given a most precious gift by her Master. In a ceremony attended by a few close friends, arani became her Master's wife as well as His slave. Now Master says that He owns her in every way, not just in the eyes of Gor, but also in the eyes of God and the law. Some have said that when a Master marries His slave, He gives her freedoms that a slave cannot have. However, this is not so in our case. If that was possible, arani feels more surrendered to her beloved Master's power than ever before, and feels even more deeply the need to be everything that He desires her to be. His pleasure will eternally be arani's primary goal in life.