| IT DOESN'T MATTER What if I missed you What if I do Everytime I see a denim loop A new car Or the constant never ringing telephone Empty mailbox full of junk I sink deeper "I tried to fill my life with friends I tried to fill my life with lovers I tried to fill my life with music I tried to fill my life with God But I tell you this... this void will not leave me" Like a constant dropping figure of woe Hangs over the clothes line around my neck And I wonder as I fall asleep I wake up troubled like you've been sleeping In my mind all night long What if I'm angry At myself What if I now cry my nights to sleep Like I used to "Leave to go back where I'd come from" What if I wear my happy mask just for you So others don't worry What if I tell no one That I'm eating my flesh from the inside out |