happiness and light

���� well, i'm so, i guess not tired, bored.... that i haven't made any progress on anything here... i'm sorry to all my fans (which i doubt there are any, but i can hope, can i not?). i'm sitting here peacefully wasting the day away so that tomorrow will come so i can go to bed and the next day will come... etc. i sometimes wonder if i'll ever not want a day to end. i miss that. being sad is fine. i like feeling sad. it's better than... well, not knowing if you're sad or tired or bored or really, honestly don't care. meeting life and every day with a blank stare. at some point when i get up a little motivation, i'll put some interesting things on here. like why i think i'm socrates and whoever invented math and fractions. and why i think my friend matt is really john lennon. none of you can hide from me. *sniff* i miss all those wonderful people. "all i can say is that my life is pretty plain. i like to watch the puddles gather rain. all i can do is pour some tea for two and speak my point of view but it's not sane. i just want someone to say to me i'll always be there if you wait. i'd just like to keep my cheeks dry today. you don't like my point of view, you think that i'm insane. it's not sane. it's not sane" i'd like to sing, but i'm silent. i'd love to scream but i stare. i'd like to live but i sit. i won't glow for fear of the warmth. it's like a million things. have you ever gotten the feeling that your brain hates you? but do not frown, tomorrow is not today, thank god, and never will be. when i frown, rough a hundred souls need smile to take the gasping hole there made. flights of angels sing thee to thy rest.