numb

once again i push my feelings deeper inside.
why cant i tell them how i feel?
why do i do this to myself?
what is going through my head?
not even i know.
it pisses me off to think about,
but i cant help it.
maybe its from years of repressing my feelings at home,
maybe its from years of not being able to have an opinion,
maybe these are the reasons why i cant express myself
maybe these are the reasons why i feel numb inside.

-Celina Hoban