GUILT
He claimed me to be his best friend.
But I was not there when he needed me.
Could have I done something to change his
mind?
And in a way am I to be blamed for his
fate?
Months have passed since he was gone.
But I still couldn’t move on. Me, still
wondering.
Guilt fills my heart for what has
happened.
How come I wasn’t there? Me, his best
friend.
Now that he’s gone, and he’s gone for
good,
I’m sorry I wasn’t able to show him how
much I cared.
I guess I failed him, I wasn’t there…
And I realized, I have never been his best
friend.
And to that, I know I have been a failure.
23
Jan 2003
You gave me a feeling of security
On the nights you checked on me.
You had your way of making me smile,
Moments like that were all worthwhile.
You kept me company
On days I was lonely.
All night you’ll laugh with me
Until I tell you that I was sleepy.
We would share cigarettes
On a tight budget.
But treat me out
When you had a lot.
And those were the old days…
Me, just remembering our old ways.
Now I’m lost and you left me hanging
Without a clue why you did such a thing.
I miss the days we hanged out together
And if you were here, days could’ve been
better.
29
Jan 2003