FEAR

 

In the stillness of the night, while the wind gently dances with the curtains in my room, a picture of your angelic face enters my thoughts.

            The moment i close my eyes, i picture in my mind the spark in your eyes, the sweetness in your smile and the coolness of your voice.
           

But everytime i open my eyes, there is only one thing i can feel- FEAR.
       

Fear that surrounds me every moment that we are together. And everytime i witness your every move, as if i wanted to run away...away from you, like i wanted to get away from the curse you've cast upon my heart, my mind and my whole being.

          But everytime our eyes meet, as if everything around me changes. Like i am being surrounded by a sweet sound of music.

          If you only knew, my love.

          I wanted to put my arms around you to make you feel how much i adore you. How i wish our lips would gently touch each other to express to you my loyalty and love. I wanted to show you too, how i would defeat my every enemy to show you that i will always be here for you.

             Eventhough i know that i can never be the one who's in your eyes, eventhough i can never be the reason for your smiles, I will still be by your side ready to listen on what you have to say, to listen to your woes and to your stories.

             I get hurt when you're hurt. I am happy whenever you are happy.

             Though my heart is having a hard time because of the deep feeling much more than love that i feel for you, i still support your every dream for the both of you.

               But behind all the laughter we share together, the gentle touch of our hands, every moment spent with you, a bittersweet tear drops off my eyes.

               The reason for my whining is the fear that lies in my heart.

               The fear that i cannot control everytime i see you, everytime i talk to you, when i know that i am getting to know you better.

               The fear that i might love you.