Movin On... 

            Whatever it was that caused me to feel this way, I dunno. For a year, never was there a day that I forgot about you. Never was there a moment that you left my thoughts. Although preoccupied with things to do, you still entered my mind…much more in my idleness. I never really wanted a way for us to meet. It just happened. This feeling was not a choice that I made. It was something uncontrollable. I could’ve chosen to just forget about you instead but I can’t. Feeling for you was way too hard. I had my sleepless nights. I shed a million tears from my eyes.

 

            You completed me in a way or two, in big ones and even small ones. Your simple ways of making me smile and the way you make up after a fight were something. You amaze me in a million ways. You brought back confidence in me. You brought back warmth in my feelings. I’m so glad you came into my life.

           

            When you left me, I thought I can never be myself again. For real in a year. But when I woke up this morning, I still thought of you, of course, but in a different way already. I woke up not dwelling on the past. I woke up not feeling sorry for myself anymore. I’ve realized it’s now time to move on. I’ve realized, I’ve survived a year without you and I know so can I again in the coming years.

           

            Fate has its own unique ways of making two persons’ paths meet. It has, too, it’s own mean ways of putting them apart. It’s either, they stick up or let go. In these moments do we realize each person’s worth, if all our efforts were worthwhile.

 

            I am moving on….on my own. I am leaving the past behind. My heart has mended, my wound has healed. You’ve left a mark in me and forever it will stay with me. You may no longer see me on the coming days, but I’m just here…always for you. You take care of yourself for me. I am moving on alone...leaving the past, the joy and the pains u brought me

April 2001