�I shall start off by saying to you how very sorry I am� What I did was so very wrong. So very bad. Evil in itself. But you must understand that I am evil. For I am a drow, a Dark Elf. And I am reverting back to my original belief. Drows are incapable of Love. I am incapable of Love.
�Dear, Zuna� Please understand that what I did was for your own good. I am myself. And in being who I am, I am only capable of Hate, Pain, and Ruin. Know that what we had was special, for you taught me how to Love. I was young and na�ve. I was so very foolish.
�Growing up with my sister, Neko, and her lover, I was shown a part of what Love was or could be. But a few among many cannot change the course of the future. Dark Elfs are not able to feel anything but Hate given to us by our wretched god Inoruuk.
�What might I tell thee of myself�?
�Oh, my sweet Zuna�. Do understand me. Please try to understand me. I was afraid. Fear clouded my judgment, be it as na�ve as it was. I was scared to let anyone too close to me. I have always kept myself at arms length� Always just out of reach. Anyone that attempted to be near me was forced away. I allowed no one to know me.
�Then you came along, my sweet. You showed me the meaning of Love. You gave to me a most precious gift. Your Love. I was saved from a foreseen life of Hatred and Pain�. By your Love. You made me feel as no one ever had. Your touch was like no other. Soon, I came to need you as I need air to breathe. I needed you to live.
�You must know how this frightened me� I was shocked to find that I needed someone. Never before had I needed one like this. I needed your smile to brighten up my day, you voice to comfort me.
�This need was dangerous� So, even though I hated to do it, I began to push you away. Oh, sweet Zuna! My need for you was so great! And then I pushed you away! I deprived my body, my soul, of what it needed, what it wanted!
�We fought, we made up. Each time I pushed you farther away, and when you came back you were always so much closer than before. Finally, you asked why I pushed you away so much. I answered you with the only answer I knew would cause you to never again glance my way. I said:
� �You keep coming back��
�Now you are truly gone. I remember the look on your face as you turned from me, never looking back, and leaving me. Do you know how much time I spent punishing myself? Tears fell as never before. Pain welled up inside me until I thought I was going to scream! It would not stop hurting, this pain caused by Love. I thought that if I could just scream and cry and pound things until I wore myself out that I would be okay� But the pain never ceased�. Not even to this day�
�My cute, adorable, sweet, nice, forgiving Zuna� My Love� Please� Please, I need you. Come back to me. I promise to try and not push you away. Dear Zuna, I need you. Every night I cry myself to sleep. I am numb during the day. I feel nothing but pain� without you.
�I love you, Zuna��
~S`Rys~ Magician of Lividian, 3022