still hoping
i really don't know how to feel,
people have been dictating me,
that you are not good enough,
and so my feelings i just have to kill,
i don't know but that is what they want from me.
i am really pressured of what to do,
for i find much happiness if we're together,
they can't get it, don't they?
that i find security in you,
and hoping they would allow us in the future.
but the biggest problem with me is i am afraid to fight,
i do not want to loose all of them,
it's like they let me choose between them and you, its tough,
without asking if i feel right,
they just want me to let go of my precious gem.
have you ever heard the song "hardest thing"?
listen to it, it explains my side,
that is what i am trying to say,
i have to stop this feeling,
the love i am hiding inside.
i don't know if it will still be you and me,
i really don't know what to do,
i'm so confused, i just know that i am happy when i am with you,
and i'm still hoping that you still love me,
for my heart still belongs to you!
-angel dust