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| *** Stevie had a shower and curled up by the fire watching the channel 7 news and Roy came in the lounge bringing two hot chocolates with him passing one to Stevie. � You know� he began � I left cause I thought it was better for you and your mum that way. I didn�t know that all her family abandoned her and I didn�t know that she was going to keep you either. If I did then I don�t know� I� probably would have stayed. You see I was only a kid like you, well just a tad bit older. You know�I remember it like it was yesterday. �It was five o�clock in the morning and the sunlight was creeping through the gaps between the old-matted curtains in the old shack where I was raised as a child. I woke up to hear cars screeching their brakes and motorbikes revving their engine, racing presumable go to work. I looked at the clock and knew that it was time for me to leave this damp and uninviting environment and move on. If your mum ever found out that I wasn�t ready for a child and I wanted to give you up she would be devastated it was better for her to make that decision alone. I remember looking over beside me and seeing her sleeping with her hand elegantly draped apon my chest and her face smothered by the yellow stained pillow. I moved her hand off me and put it gentle beside her. I hardly had the courage to leave but I knew if I didn�t it would only get worse and she would find out the truth what ever that may be!� � What do you mean the truth?� Stevie asked shocked of what he heard but their was no answer Stevie could tell that even though Roy�s eyes were in his direction he couldn�t see him he could only hear, see and smell his old house and its surroundings. It was only when Stevie had studied Roy�s eyes he noticed Roy had a special glow in his eyes and it looked like he was about to cry. � When I got out of bed� Roy began again �I remember that vague thoughts swam through my mind swallowing up all sense of reality. I was going to be a father me of all people Mr. Independence I was only 18 fresh out of high school. I was too overraught to think straight so I followed my instinct and ran away like a scared animal that I was. I regret it now and I don�t know why I was so frivolous. I got up out of bed and got dressed in my favorite pink polo top that your mum had picked out for me, blue jeans and my green jackets and boots. When I crept into the hall the dog saw me and gave me some type of look with her big deep blue eyes and she arched her back, stretching to get up. She gave me a look as if she knew what I was going to do. I had walked slowly backward to the door and then I turned and walked through. I knew that I would have to leave your mum and you behind and let you and myself get on with our own lives. When I took one last look back I saw your mother, with her sandy colored hair and her ocean blue eyes like your eyes, smiling, waving thinking it was just an ordinary day and I was just going to work. I waved back then got on my Harley with the red flames on it and started it up. The dog started to howl but it still didn�t stop me. I drove off in the early morning air, past all the parked cars past all the places I use to go and my car lot that had once been my fathers. Where too I didn�t know but I knew it would be the start of my new life!� Roy came back from remebering that day with a jolt and looking around like he wasn�t expecting to see this house but the other one he had owned 10 years ago. *** Three weeks later and Stevie had a father it took a bit getting use to on both parties Roy having some one to look after and Stevie getting use to Roy�s snoring. Roy had a nice home in the suburbs and it was very cozy which is what a real-estate agent would say if a house appeared small which is what this house was. Although it was better than his old �rent a bomb of a flat!� that he use to live in. It had everything he needed and for the first time since the death of his mum Stevie had found his life enjoyable and although he didn�t have her Stevie found that he could still be happy with or with out her cause she will always be in his heart! |