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| Chapter 4 |
| Hasmi: I growled to myself watching him talk to that teacher, paaathetic. was he trying to pick her up or something? UGH, I could feel his eyes drilling into the back of my head in geo' the jerk; I walked to the girls room and took out a cigarette but than I changed my mind I was already in enough trouble why smoke up some young bloods bathroom. I noticed on my way to the bathroom that cute boy rocky was outside still. Wonder if he'd go for a burger with me or some pizza? I fixed my hair in the mirror by yanking my sun glasses over it. Perfect. Here I come! I walked out of the girls room and saw him talking to that joke douglas. grrrr. Who cares! I'm going for it. I walked down to where they were standing and rocky walked away and saw me "hi hasmi" he smiled brightly "hi." He walked infront of me and shook my hand again. Wierd. Yet flattering. "so what's a guy like you doing right now?" I said trying to be coy "nothing really, I thought I'd go back to my room and study" he shrugged. "more of that uh Leary stuff huh?" I asked kinda dull, I don't follow that play stuff. "No," he shook his head "computer science. it's really interesting, but not as cool as the botany class I'm taking" he sat down on the grass- how care less he was, so I sat beside him fiddling with a the rim of my boots "so, what is that exactly? more science?" "no, it's plants, just plants....." it was quiet. "well....you wanna go for something to eat? I know this great place down on river side-..." "yeah sure, I can always study later" we stood up and walked to the parking lot "uuuh, can we take your car, mine is a nagging reminder right now?" "yeah okay" we swirved our path in the direction to where he parked, when we got there I saw that his car was so nice! It was one of those silver colored cars- the new models and I wanted one just like it- well maybe in a gold or dark red "your car is fabulous" I mentioned as we got in "thanks, it took me forever to think of a good color the green ones didn't look right to me" I made a noise as an 'oh' symbol. The drive was peaceful I had never listened to music like that ever it was...kinda cool, calm, and relaxing- alot like he was. "Who is that?" I asked looking at another tape he had in his glove compartment. "it's enya" "oh, is she new?" "not really. It's just no one really acknowledged her until now, it was hard to buy her stuff because I never knew her name, but I've heard alot of her work" another noise to note that I understood. Another song came on, it was from moby that one song this is good bye? something like that maybe porcelean I heard it once, but any way this song was more relaxing than the last so I felt almost comfortable enough to fall asleep until a really loud tune busted out of the radio "sorry, the slow side is done" shy smile. that was okay with me, I had no intention of falling alseep in a slight strangers car. We finally reached our destination and went inside for something to eat. "So this ignorant kid, the very boy you talked to awhile ago, has been harrassing me all day, it's sad really" I watched him crack a smile than start to laugh "what?" "nothing, that just sounds about right. My brother tends to do things like that" "brother? That maniac is your brother?! oh rock', I gotta say I feel for you to have to have," -try saying that over "lived with that-..." I searched for a word "BOY," okay so it wasn't origanal "for so long and you still live with him even now?" He nodded "God that must suck" I was just stunned by this whole thing I had to sit back a second and admire the person to accomplish this feet. "Yeah, well we deal with each other we're not always like a match set but we know where we stand as far as life or anything goes, always friends-always bros ya' know?" only child. "No. Sorry I don't." "It's okay." We ate silently for a bit than I had to ask him "so do you have a girlfriend?" his bite froze midway than he simply said 'no' and continued eating "well why not? someone as good looking as you," he said something while I was talking so I had to pause from that conversation "huh?" "because they all think I'm wierd" "why would they think that?" it didn't sound right to me, here you have this perfectly sane person and everyone is going around thinking he's wierd "well, you see- it was about two years ago-..." I cut him off "and they're still talking about it? God talk about movin on" "yes, well, I lost this girl this really awesome girl and I said that I would never love again...that's what I promised to her," he said that as though his loving her that way were something he could never repeat on someone else not even by accident. "that's sweet." He smiled a 'thank you' and continued "and well the next year in school things got kinda blury for me and I thought that I had this admirer and everything only she was a little nuts herself." "I'll bet you did have one you're darling" stop it already, you've never jumped hoops to please anyone before what makes him any diffrent? "well after a few notes and pranks she writes to me to see her at the dance coming up......" he let it trail off "and-?" not meaning to rush him. "well I found it out was me" I could tell he was waiting for the usual laughing or taunting response, well there wouldn't be one. It really wasn't funny. "that's horrible" "and it wasn't found out in private- oh-no it has to be infront of everyone, ever since than I got 'looney toon' attached to me sometimes "oh gosh" "after than I went to therapy, my parents thought I needed help- hell, I though I needed help, but in turn it was just that I wanted to let love back in my heart and to do that I had to do it myself.....at least....that's what my therapist says" he continued to eat along with me silently. "you know, that isn't wierd and it makes plenty of sense" He huffed a breath "about as much sense as a blind man needed reading glasses because he can't read tiny brail" I smiled into a laugh and he was right along with me. And we had an awesome pre-dinner together. Just me-...and beautiful, calm rocky. |
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