On My Own by
Alicia[Yui lies in bed
She slowly pulls the covers away from her and sits
up.]
And now
Im all alone again
Nowhere to turn, no where to go to
[She stands up and wraps a quilt around her as she
advances to her bedroom window.]
Without a
home without a friend
Without a face to say hello to.
[She observes the starry night sky and closes her
eyes as a soft wind ruffles her hair.]
And now the
night is near,
Now I can make believe
[The stars seem to form Tamahomes face.
The quilt drops and pools by her feet.
The wind blows harder and Yui braces herself.]
Hes
here.
[Yui turns around.
A silhouette of Tamahome is made visible to her.
She reaches out to touch the shadow but it
disappears.
Yui draws back.
She runs outside with a threadbare jacket in hand.]
Sometimes I
walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping.
[She puts the jacket on.
Yui turns suddenly to make sure no one is following
her.
She sees Suboshi passing by.
Suboshi glances at the poorly dressed figure.
He picks up a rock and hurls it at "the
boy" not knowing it is Yui.
Yui runs away frightened yet happy Suboshi
doesnt recognize her.]
I think of
him and then Im happy
With the company Im keeping
[After a long run, she puts her hands on her knees
and pants.
She laughs heartily at what happened earlier.
Yui dusts herself, puts her hands in her pockets and
walks calmly.]
The city
goes to bed
[She looks back once more at "home".]
And I can
live inside my head.
[A pretend Tamahome appears to her offering her his
hand.
Yui bows and takes his hand.]
On my own
Pretending hes beside me.
[Tamahome squeezes Yuis hand and winks at her.
Yui blushes.]
All alone I
walk with him till morning
[Yui feels Tamahomes arm slowly encircling her
waist.]
Without him
[He pulls Yui closer and caresses the girls
face.
Tamahome leans down to kiss Yui.]
I feel his
arms around me
And when I louse my way I close my eyes
[Yui is distracted.
She cant find Tamahome anymore.
She twirls around and shuts her eyes.]
And he has
found me.
[She is back in Tamahomes arms.
He kisses her.]
In the rain
[Yui laughs.
Tamahome embraces the girl and sweeps her up
unexpectedly.]
The pavement
shines like silver
[He spins her about.
He puts her down again and they dance.]
All the
lights are misty in the river
[Yuis shabby clothes turn into a lovely gown.]
In the
darkness
[Everything is dark around them.
All she sees is Tamahome.]
The trees
are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me
[Tamahome kisses her hand and pats it gently.]
Forever and
forever.
[Yui embraces Tamahome.
She whispers "I love you" into his ear.]
And I know
[The figure of Tamahome slowly begins to fade.
Yui is startled.
She sees a faint figure of Tamahome blowing her a
kiss.
A soft wind dishevels her hair.
She calls to him
But he is gone.]
Its
only in my mind
[A pair of rough hands grab her from behind.
Yui screams and turns around.
She sees Suboshi.
Embarrassed and angry she pulls away from him and
smacks him.]
That
Im talking to my self
And not to him.
[Yui runs away.
Suboshi calls to her as he rubs his cheek.]
And although
I know that he is blind
Still I say
Theres a way for us!
[Yui starts to cry.]
I love him!
But when the night is over
[She looks up at the sky.
The sun is about to rise.]
He is gone,
the rivers just a river
[She stops running and catches her breath.
She hears Suboshi calling her and she runs away but
stumbles and falls on a muddy puddle.]
Without him
[Bits of the memories she had with Tamahome dance in
Yuis head.
She bites her lip.
Yui tries to get up but she cant.]
The world
around me changes
[Suboshi kneels beside her and puts a blanket around
her.
He picks her up and walks away with her.]
The trees
are bare and everywhere the streets
Are full of strangers!
[Yui reluctantly lets Suboshi take her back home.
She closes her eyes.
She does not want to face reality.]
I love him!
[She looks up to Suboshi.
His face changes into Tamahomes just for a
second then it becomes Suboshis once more.]
But everyday
Im learning
[Yui buries her face into Suboshis chest and
cries, angry that Tamahome will never love her.]
All my life,
Ive only been pretending!
[Suboshi holds her close and tries to hush her.]
Without me
[Yui thinks of how much she would have liked to be
Suzaku No Miko.
Miakas face flashes in her memory and she fumes
just to think that Tamahome loves her.]
His world
will go on turning
A world thats full of happiness that I have
Never known!
[Suboshi lays Yui in bed.
He hugs her and brushes her bangs aside.
He gently kisses her forehead.]
I love him,
[Suboshi leaves Yui.
He bangs his fist on Yuis bedroom wall and
curses under his breath.
I love you, Yui.
Just forget about him, hell never give
you affection
]
I love him,
[Suboshi cowers every time he hears Yui calling
Tamahome.]
I love him,
But only
[Suboshi looks at Yui from a distance.
And it tears up his soul to see her like that.
He leaves, shaking his head sadly.
Yui sits up after a long cry and looks in the mirror.
She combs her hair back.
I love you, Tamahome
]
On my
own
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