Oh well, this page is revived with a generic new look, for the better or for the worse.



Writing this at midnight, eve of my Grade 8 Yamaha Drum Exam, which I have not been fully prepared yet (though I did play the exam piece "Put Your Weight on My Shoulders" umpteen times). Sight-reading section will get my vote for the most likely to fail part. Sigh.



Many shit happened since the last blog. Making it into final year, screwed up in my Final Year Project, Attending Graduation Day, working at the (insert swear-word) Tenchi Comics, changed to work at Yamaha.



And yea, did my social life sucked man.



Guess a part of me still enjoys being alone, yet overall I felt lonely. The lack of contact, communication and interaction with my acquaintances made me one sad man. Portions of me conflict each other. Wow.



Same goes to the issue of blogging. Though I would really like to write into a blog for any significant event or just my current feelings, the trait of laziness never fails to strike and therefore not being recorded. And yet I felt sad that I did not leave any records of my life. It makes my life seems... unmemorable.



I think I've have made the same mistake of not socialising in polytechic as what I committed in my secondary school. I only realised that my sec school class had quite alot of interesting classmates that I can interact to and possibly make much more interesting memories. But alas. I just went alone. Right after class ends I walked straight to the bus stop and went home. I have wasted such precious social moments at home alone.



And yet, I felt that I have committed the same mistake in polytechnic. True, it was during that period that I finally became "aware". Finally learning how to have fun with my classmates, sharing hobbies, spending recreational times together, chatting with each other about anything under the sun. Enjoying the fun of socialising. And yet, I felt I had not done enough of it. And now I'm filled with regrets.



I'm scared, scared that I'll lose contact with my 'once friends' after the test of time. And I felt I would not get as lucky as I am in poly anymore due to my inability to build friendships. Come on, I'm sure anybody who know me knows that I'm either a boring person or tries too hard not to become one. I'm also not known to carry out interesting conversations, often ending conversations due to not knowing how to continue it.



Sis went to Canada a few weeks ago to Emily carr Institute for further studies, and many trials await her there. I hope that everything will go well for her and for her to grow strong.



Just finished a social dota game with Yizhan and Weibin, good luck in their army in the next day.



And I'm joining them soon.