~What I Believe~ When we first lost Christopher I blamed God for taking my son, but I now think differently. Now that I have sat down and thought a little bit about my present situation.. I was always hearing people say to "maybe it's better this way" or "God needed an Angel" or "God had bigger plans for him" Here is what I personally think: God is the creator and parent of all! We as parents do not like seeing our children hurt or like hurting them! So if God is the parent to all he does not like seeing his children hurt, why would he take my baby and hurt me this way? He wouldn't because he is a parent and does not want to see us his children in pain. When people say "God had a reason" I think God took my baby to teach me lesson? I do not think so! God did not take my son away from me, his death was something that happened. God was there to welcome Christopher into his kingdom. And Jesus was there to make Christopher's journey painless. I know that there was no struggle for Christopher, he did not suffer for the peace and calm came before the pain or struggle would have. He was already beginning his journey before his death, his spirit was already on it's way before his body died! I know that there was no struggle for him for the peaceful look on his face when he was born! The so called "MASK OF DEATH" was not there only the look of peace. The look of a baby sleeping peacefully as if he were alive! I myself do not believe God took my Child, he would not hurt one of his children on purpose, or do it to teach them a lesson. God did not take Christopher but he was there to welcome him, and Jesus was there with him taking away the pain and the struggle. There is a link to another post of mine at the bottom of this page it explains how I know my baby did not struggle or feel any pain. Sure at times I scream at God saying "YOU HAVE PERFORMED MIRACLES BEFORE! WHY COULD YOU NOT PERFORM THIS ONE FOR ME?" "WHY COULD YOU NOT PREVENT THIS?" That is all the hurt and frustration and the wanting of someone to blame! I do not blame God! I blame FATE! Fate for doing this to me, for putting this trying life test before me! I also believe that our life is already mapped out for us everything is already in place! Our destiny and that of our children is already planned it just has to be carried out and completed! I don't know if this makes sense to you or not! And I know not everyone believes this but this is my own personal belief that makes the pain and anger that much easier for me to deal with. Click on the Flowers to continue to "Signs From Angel Christopher" The musical midi being played is "Every Breath You Take" Click on the flowers to download this midi. The backgrounds, borders, and buttons on this site were created by myself! Please do not take my designs and alter them and claim them as your own! Each page was created in Loving Memory of my son CHRISTOPHER ANDREW CAMERON BORN SLEEPING AND FOREVER SILENT THURSDAY MARCH 6, 2003 ~A Moment In Our Arms, A Lifetime In Our Hearts~ |
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