GreatCourage

Magnus is my Swedish first name. It is originally Latin and means big, or great. As an adjective, it is conjugated:
Magnus - Major - Maximus.

Some words that has magnus as a base are: Magnum, Magnanimous, Magnificent, Magnify, and Magnitude, and magnolia and magpie... well, maybe not those last two words, but I am sure some people would like to pay a fortune to say that maggot is connected to my name.

"Magnanimous Magnus, the Magnificient Man."

Yuzo is my Japanese first name. It is written with two kanji, i.e., Chinese characters. The first one means brave, courage, and the second - well, it can be found in the compound of the two kanji meaning refrigerator, and it can also be found in warehouse, and it means possession. It can also be found in the compound that is the name of the well-known samurai Musashi - the author of A Book of Five Rings.

Magnus Yuzo - Great Courage.

I would like to live up to my name, but it is very hard. I have my vices, I have my virtues; I have my good sides and my bad; I am not perfect. I have done bad things.Too many people have been affected by my ignorance and inconsideration, selfishness, my vices and my bad sides, and I am sorry for having been that way. It cannot be changed, except for in the future, keeping it from happening again. I believe that I must make an effort to look up on my self objectively and critically, and try hard to become aware of those sides of me that I am not in contact with, the sides of myself that I do not want to believe that I have, that I do not want to acknowledge, to become aware of. "Return to thy sober senses and call thyself back; and when thou hast roust thyself from sleep and hast percieved that they were only dreams which troubled thee, now in thy waking hours look at these (the things about thee) as thou didst look at those (the dreams)."* I must "...Examin [myself] at every step..." ** and I must have "the ability to percieve [my] faults."*** I believe that if I can do this I will grow, change and develop. I must have the courage to do this and be honest about what I find, and be brave enough to face it, handle it, deal with it. Often I create my own prison, and live in my own little world. To get out of it can be hard and painful, but if I dare to try, I have taken a big step.

I do not want to force my ideas up on anyone. If there is anything that I am unclear about or something that I have mistaken, misunderstood, or if there is anything that can be added, changed or criticized, or anything else, my mind is open and welcoming.

* Aurelius, Marcus: Meditations: Book 6, #31
** Ibid.: Book 5, #11
*** Ibid.: Book 7, #24

"I have my bitter days, knowing myself so ugly, so alone... Some times...
"You cry?"