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Monday,             031504

 Well.. my eNtry toDay taLks aBout my testimoNiaL
as a Christian. ^^'

  I made it beCause it was reQuired on ouR
VaLues Education suBject. hEhe.. juSt thouGht i'd
 poSt it heRe.. wHy not dba? ^^

  My Testimonial

  I started hearing the gospel when

I first studied in Grace Christian High School, I was Kinder 2 then.

Hearing the good news until my elementary years

gave me a good character as a person ---- but I guess it never got me spiritually.

  Back in Grade 3, having devoted Catholic parents, I first got my holy communion at our local church.

It was one of my happy moments as a child getting dressed in white with matching make-up while

walking down the aisle for my first ever eating-the-‘holy’-host-ritual.

  I also believed that if you continue that ritual every once a week,

 your heart will be cleaned by the host (which symbolizes Jesus’ body),

which means your sins will be washed out, and that you’ll be assured a place in heaven.

  I know it sounds pretty phony, but yes,

I did believe in that when I was still a child, actually, until I was Grade 6.

 But it all changed when a local Christian church invited me by asking my Mom

to their annual summer conference. Ironically, my mom agreed.

 In there, I got to know God more and saw the real meaning of salvation.

That no wafer host can wash out my sins but only Jesus’ blood which he shed in His crucifixion.

 The following verses also gave me some answers about God…

  ‘For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.’ Romans 3:23;

‘For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.’ Romans 6:23;

 ‘But God demonstrated his own love towards us in this: while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.’ Romans 5:8;

'If you confess with you mouth “Jesus is Lord”,

        and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.

   For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified,

            and it is with your mouth that you  confess and are saved.’ Romans 10:9-10;

‘Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.’ Romans 10:13;

                                              ---- after reading these verses, I gave my heart to God.

    Being reborn again gave me a whole new perspective in life.

 For most people, life has its ups and downs,

but dealing with those down times can be sometimes brutal.

   I was having one of those down times just after entering my first year high school.

My peers, whom I knew all through out elementary, drifted away.

 They all started having ‘love lives’ of their own. At first, it didn’t bother me.

But day after day, they spent more of their time with their boyfriends than with me!

 I felt crushed, lonely at times. This was where Satan got me.

 I was introduced to witchcraft.

It gave me a feeling of power, a uniqueness that none of my friends have.

Even their boyfriends can’t match it.

 Good thing, God made me realize my position before it got worst.

It was the Halloween week where most of the weekday was declared no classes.

  My parents and I got into a fight. Attitude problem I think.

So I just spent most of my time in my room reading Wicca related materials.

On the last day of our short Halloween vacation, my day, as I may define it was passive and nice.

I mean it worked perfectly fine that I didn’t had troubles with my parents.

  Everything was back to normal.

That night, I began realizing that I didn’t pray to God the whole week!

I then realized my huge mistake.

 I immediately knelt down and prayed to God, asking for forgiveness.

The next week, I started a whole new life. A life wheRe God waS the center of it.

    Eventually, my spiritual life began growing.

I engaged myself to the Morning Devotion and fellowships happening at my school.

 I overcame obstacles in life with the help of God.

Learning from mistakes and accepting blows that life gave with my Savior by my side.

     Presently, I am now being motivated to share the gospel. I once read a Bible quotation that goes…

                                      ‘ But how shall they ask him to save them

                                                unless they believe in him?

                                           And how can they believe in him

                                        if they have never heard about him?

                                         And how can they hear about him

                                               unless someone tells them? ‘

                                                                                    Romans 10:14

  Yes, I was hit by those words.

 I mean, what kind of Christian are you if you won’t even share your faith?

I wouldn’t want to be useless.

That’s why I’ve decided on sharing my faith, some how.

Living a Christian life to be a model for others to see is one thing I can do.

 Jesus loves us, and He proved it by dying for us all.

My greatest joy is to tell others of His love for them.

I know it won’t be easy ---- but it is always rewarding.

‘ If you know the Lord Jesus

as your Savoir, you are a child

of the King. Each one of God’s children

has a royal call on their lives. ‘

1 Peter 2:9

Monday,             030104

    "Ang manGa sinunGaling ay
           anG manGa tao na hiNdi mo na piNapaniwaLaan,
                kahit na siNasabe na niYa na sinunGaling siYa."

  hEy.Ü hMmmm.. haLf day toDay sa sChooL naMin (due to stRike)..
1.30pM na kaMi diNismiss. Nung 2.45pM, naNdun kaMi kay aLvin Chua.
(*kami - me, Ann, anD Mike --cLassmates)

  iNternet, inteRnet..
epaL noh! soMeone haCked mY fRiendster!!! As in..
(i think it waS haCked yesterday.. i dRopped by sa iSang netcafé kasi(022904)..)
   ..God's punishment to my disobedience, I gueSs. ^^'

Yet so, sHift topiC. ^^

 Well, natuLog lanG ako buonG hapon
nunG I arrived sa houSe.(3.30-7pM)

 Nung paG giSing ko, my paRents just aRrived fRom Baguio.
At the dinner taBLe, whiLe eating,
 seRmon seRmon si Dad.
WhiLe mom, deaDma tReatment (siLent treatMent)..

 peRo, daD eased up afteR diNner..
(nunG tinawaG kaMi one by one foR our allowance in sChooL.)

 He aSked aBout mY pLans thiS upcoMming suMmer.
So toLd hiM what I pLanned (refer to 122903 eNtry.)

 Well, he didn't aPproved aBout the baSketball ekek. hEhe.^^'
Due to, hiNdi daw uN mapapakiNabanGan (useLess) in the futuRe.
 You wouLdn't aSk youR cLients (in youR business caReer), 'BaSketball tayo.'
(saAn? sa kaNto?) hEhe.. (that's what my daD said. ^^')

 iN faiRness, he haS got a point. hai..
dapat daw goLf.. bowLing, baDminton.. soMething like that.
  A lonG time sport daw.

 And me, beinG or haVing an easiLy swayed heaRt,
was moVed and convinCed by it.

Kaya thiS summer.. my pLans aRe:
  + BowLing
  + GoLf
  + Gymnastics
  + Piano.

 ..aYun. :D
..aNd ofcouRse, with soMe vaCations to top it all off. =)


 

Sunday,               022904

     "The heaRt is deceitful aBove all
            thinGs, aNd despearteLy wiCked,
                              wHo can kNow it?"
                                  -JeRehmiah 17:9

 A Leap Year. Ü
An eveRy fouR yeaRs haPpening down heRe on eaRth.
And yet, I'm sittinG heRe in my beDroom.. doinG nothing.

   ..aNd yes, I hate it.
waLa kasi paRents ko, nSa Baguio.. (buSiness ekek)
..aNd as a so-called 'houSe ruLe',
hiNdi pweDe uMaLis if they'Re out.
  daRn.

haiiii.. I guess that's wHy God gives a lonGer
life span to peopLe who oBey theiR parents. ^^' (as wRitten in the BibLe.)
  (don't get it?:P uHhhmm..
 maYbe kc aLam ni God that if we oBey ouR parents
 masasayanG tiMe mo? ^^' ..ata. haha. ewan.. it's juSt a meRe conjecture.^^')

  Aaaanyways, dapat kaSi saBay ako sa 'faMiLy-day-mall' niLa Ann. (cLassmate)
Kase, la rin akong gagawin heRe sa baHay.
 (saYang naMan tiMe ko.. dba? ^^)
 But, I oBeyed my paRents. *siGh*
And that's why I'm heRe... stuCk.

 Well, hEhe, due to my natuRe.. that state didn't last.
I had it. ^^'
 That's why, nunG aRound 6.45pM..
I went out and went to a netcafé. ^^' (w/ Angel, the neiGhbor)
'Till 8pM kami naKarating nG baHay.

 eHhh.. by cHance, naG text paLa sila Papa sa pHone ko.
TuMawag daw ako sa hoteL niLa. (7.30 siLa naG text) ..hEhe.^^'
ShempRe they aSked whEre have I been.
 So, I toLd them..
All I can say iS I can bet soMe futuRe seRmons wHen they get baCk.^^'
oH well.. that's life. ^^'
 

Friday,                022004

 guess what! gueSs what! ^^
toDay's mY bday! :D haha. oH well. :)
hMmm.. befoRe statinG what haPpened toDay,
let's rewind 'till last niGht. :)

Last night, I feLt so depRessed..
I really don't know wHy.. peRo,
I feLt like it. Yung feeLing na all the coMmotion
waS pRessing youR heart so muCh.. that it hurts.

One faCtor that cost that waS beCause of the faCt
that mY pLanner was miSsing! :( ..I now do reaLize the
gReat iMportance of it.. i caN't live w/o it!!!!! :(
(reLate as if you lost youR cellphone. ^^)

..maYbe that's why i'M depRessed. *siGh*
eitheR ways, I stayeD up late..:D 11.45pM na ata ako na2Log.^^
i waS chatting kaSe.. hehe.. hMmm.. mRn kc ako tinataNong sa
manGa fRiends ko.. kaya.. ayuN. (napa tagaL.^^)

hMmm.. so, enouGh about yeSterday.. anD foCus today! :D

Yes, it is bY biRthday.. anD i'M 16.. i'M still a teen. :)
..that'S good eNough.^^ oh well.. :)

Starting my day, I woke up at eXaCtLy 6aM.
The first one to gReet me waS my Dad. He gave me a waRm peCk on
the cHeeck aLong with soMe cash. :D
..well, moM's not heRe yet. She left goinG to Cebu.
(fuNeraL of Lola Sabing --- she left nunG Tuesday pa, aNd will
be baCk later afterNoon.Ü)

So.. hMmm.. at sChooL, nunG kkpaSok ko paLang, I went
by sa offiCe, kukuHa kasi ako nG cLasslist. Tapos, bY cHance,
mR. sY (cHem teaCher) was theRe. Actually, naHiya pa ako to pass his way..^^'
Buuut.. I decided, who is he foR me not to paSs that way? haha. ^^'
So I did. Ayun. He gReeted me a haPpy bday.. (aLam paLa niYa. ^^')
..kaSabay ko sha paG akyat sa fLoor namiN.. kontinG chit-chat rin.

hMmm.. tapos.. taMang taMa.. toDay waS the stuDent teaCher's day.
it'S the daY wheRe all hiGhschooL stuDents get the cHance to teaCh (about the BibLe)
to the eLementary kids.^^

We, (me, zaL, aLog, aNn, anD raCheL eDillio), weRe gRoup mates on that event.
BaLe we weRe to teaCh gRade 5 section 6.. whiCh was appaRentLy the 'StaR seCtion'..^^
  ..kktwa nga eh.. unG nasa dooR pa kami.. one giRl was so kiLig.. she saiD sa katabi nya na..
"Uy! look! looK! stuDent teaChers!" aS in.. paRang nakakita nG aRtista. haha. And, it was cute.:)

 It was quite fun.. (my fiRst tiMe to do this.Ü) We kindda maDe it keNgkoy aNd fun..:)
we eveN let the kids gueSs whiCh one of uS is ceLebRating his/her bDay..
  then, after they guessed (whiCh was followed by caNdies for thoSe who gueSsed coRrectly..)
we let theM sinG haPpy bday foR me. haha.^^ whY not?:P

 i eveN let theM write on a 1/4 sHeet of papeR kunG ano 1st iMpRession niLa saamin.
hee hee. ^^ moStLy, I had the 'kiNd, niCe, veRy aCtive, good teaCher (anD taKe note) you'Re beautifuL' quaLity.
   haha. I love thoSe kiDs! ^^

 hMm.. theN, (baLe it waS onLy 1hr., one peRiod --- sayanG nGa eh, dati 2days yun, nGayun 1 nLng.)
aFter thRowing, well, oR playing the 'Catch the Falling Menthos' we biD goodbye. :)

At reCess, zaL gave me her gift..
  hMm.. Lopez(classmate) aLso did.. whiCh was a sCrabbLe boaRd gaMe..
 (wHich i aM totally not good at. ^^')
wHiLe Alog treated me foR breakfast! haha. :)

 tapoS nunG luNch, zaL weNt to ouR cLassroom.
tiNatawaG nYa ako. (she aLso called soMe cLose friends aNd friends rin..)
  then, she gRabbed mY wrist and dragged me to theiR cLassrOom.
(kiNakabahan nGa ako eh.^^') veRy cReepy.^^'

theN.. nunG we aRrived.. (quite panting foR air at that tiMe due to the dRagging..^^)
suRprise hit me on the faCe (ouCh:P)..
  mR. sy aNd otheR fRiends were theRe! they weRe liGhting
the caNdLes on the caKe (chocoLate moose sumthinG.. i dunno. ^^')
..tHen.. they saNg the tiMe-hoNored neveR dyinG heaRt waRming haPpy biRthday soNg whiCh did fill the aiR..^^
aNd wiTh all thoSe effects aNd commotion..  I shed teaRs. >.<
epaL soBra. haha.^^'
meRon pa nGa paLabok aka 'thiNk-aBout-it-aS-a-sPaghetti'. :)

it waS all niCe. :)
tinanonG ko nGa siNo naG pLan eh!
..they wouLdn't tell!

hMmm.. but i later fouNd out (gaBi na) that it waS
no otheR that mY loveLy beStfRiend.. RizzaLeen Chua Uy, aLso known as, zaL. :)
Siya nGa rin ata naG paY up for all the expeNse.. whiCh for me waS quite weiRd.^^'
I mean.. it shouLd cost alot dba? .....^^'
eitheR ways, she maDe my day. :) (i gueSs that's wHat you call a SWEET sixteenth bDay.Ü)
(huGs anD kiSses foR you zaL!Ü)

oNga paLa! naHanap ko na riN unG planner ko! :)
Dad gave it to me (a schooL guaRd haNded it to hiM nunG disMissaL)
---naHuLog ko cguRo. ^^'

LastLy, lateR nunG niGht, mOm gave me a new cellphoNe. :)
A new SamsunG C100.. ayun, new phone (finally. ^^ *recall eNtry Saturday,082303 on mY lost cellphone.^^*)

And you know whhhhat?
..I ceRtainLy do not deServe this! Nu-uh!
  wHy?
...cuuuz' today, I cheaTed at mY cHinese quuuuiz. :(
And yes, it iS a biG deaL to me.
It's oNe step to baCk sLiding aGain.
And I hate it.

aLam niYo ba, laSt night, I was taLking to a nonChristian fRiend.
And I toLd hiM about thiS.. 'Ayaw ko na maG cheaaaat!!!.. peRo di ako maRunong' liNe.
And then he saiD....... 'Then don't.'

I mean.. wow, siYa pa naG saBe nun..
it was siMple anD right. totally. *siGh*
...but i did it.:(

and it was really not a riGht thinG to do in mY birthday..
..but God waS so good, he gave me thiS day.

What moRe can i say?
I'm speeChLess dude.

*haaaaPpy biRthday to me..*

Thursday,           021704

         "Dakishimetainoni..
              (I just want to hold you tight.)"

   I am officiaLy baCksLidinG aGain..
aS a Christian. :( I'm pRactically guiLty
 of cHeatinG(peRpetually) aNd foR watChing
Sex aNd the City (not that i think it's bad.. peRo.. hehe, la lanG.^^)

    I'm faCing a diLemma!
I'm tuRninG 16 anD i'M still aLone,
still waitinG, anD without end ---still cheating.
   Am i maKing seNse?! ..I don't thinK so. *siGh* :(

  I'm tuRning 16 and still,
I don't make sense..
      ..how baD caN thiS get? :(
 

Sunday,           021504

       "They will not listen, they'Re not listening still,
                                      pHerhaps they neveR will.."
                                                    'Vincent'

   In meMoriam of mY gReat gRand motheR, LoLa Sabing,
who died thiS 13^th of FebruaRy in the yeaR of ouR Lord 2004 havinG
a totaL of 94 yeaRs heRe on eaRth.. thnks for eveRything, you roCk. :)

*FYI: she died oN the so-called 'fRiday the 13^th' (how cReepy caN that get?)

  uHmmm.. for youR info aGain.. i aM the 4th geNeration of the line.
baLe.. it's Lola Sabing -> gRandmother -> mom -> me
     ..kewL eh? :)

  ..aNd.. she dieD in heR sLeep. (no siCkness whatsoever)
aNd aLso.. i've juSt fouNd out that she died toDay (suNday) when
  moM toLd me..

Dad aNd moM went to a vaCation thiS fRiday in Boracay kase..
(a vaLentine's retreat for theM. ^^) So.. no one infoRmed us.. ayuN. :)

And if you'Re aSking me what haPpened on mY 14^th..
   ..i don't reLate on that hoLiday. ^^

Sunday,           011004

        "I choose to set you free, let you fly,
             but instead you decided to blend with me,
                                                as one..."

    ThinGs that I've thouGht of...
if you beCome aRoused, you haVe two oPtions..
 to do soMethinG, oR not. ^^
                            --- in mY caSe, shEmpre waLa! :P

Let's faCe the faCt na all huMan beinGs feeLs that waY on
a ceRtian point of theiR lives. And pRactically, you have
two options (mentioned aBove) ..hehe..
    waLa lanG. ^^


  The otheR thinG that I've thouGht of is this..
dReams aRen't meaNt to be reMembereD. hMmm.. oR let's say,
maKaLimutan mo maN anG paNagiNip mo, the reaCtion is suReLy theRe.
You eitheR smiLe, sCream, sHed a teaR, no reaCtion, anD in some caSes ---- be wet.

       ooookey, sHift topiC. :)

hMmmm.. like I've saiD on the eaRLier eNtry..
i wouLd like to soCiaLize a bit..
but I guess I caN oNly soCiaLize in a cHatrooM. *siGh*

 thiS niGht, bdaY kaSi nG neiGhbor naMin, si UncLe eDwin, dad oF daFfny (a good fRiend of mY sister Star),
so ayuN, we (mY faMiLy) weRe invited to eat dinner at Annabell's in TomaS Morato.
 I woRe a white sLeeveLess shirt aNd a miNiskirt whiCh i juSt bouGht thiS Monday. ^^ hehe. la lanG. :)
hMmmm.. aLong with me waS Angel (dauGhter of aNother neighboR)
aNd BuChoy (dnt knw the reLation, of UncLe Edwin) & Co.

 So, we left aRound 6.30pM aNd sTayed theRe 'till 9.00pM
Between thoSe tiMes, sHempre, we teeNs got boRed sa reStaurant after fiNishing diNner.
So laKad laKad.. (raMi kc manGa restauRants theRe.. tabi tabi lanG. ^^)
   They deCided na billiaRd naLang.
SiguRo 100 meteRs lanG ang layo fRom the restauRant.

 Nung paG paSok duon sa billiaRds houSe, (aCtually baR & billiaRds un. ^^')
ciGarette sMoke waS totally the aiR in the pLace!
FYI: I hate it.
  FeeLing ko dna ako mkhinGa.. AS IN. (danG, 2nd haNd sMoking!)
cReepY.
 peRo waLa rin ako naGawa.. (manGa kaSama ko kc paRty goeRs.. ^^')
cReepY rin kc kunG nsa laBas lang ako.. rMi naG hahaNg out dun eh. ^^'

So ayun, they played.. I didn't. (nka miNi skirt riN lang kc ako. ^^ )

  hMmmm.. I was tRying to find a disco place na nGa lang eh..
(to somehow luRe them theRe rather thaN be stuck iN that sMoking aRea.. ^^')
Yet so, I wasn't suCcessful.. ^^'

epaL nGa eh! nunG paG uwi na.. dun ko lanG napaNsin na riGht beSide the
reStaurant na kinainaN namin.. mRng somewhat disCo place! aSar! haaay..
     oH well.. it waS meaNt to be lanG siGuro.

Yet so, I hate 2Nd haNd sMoking. ^^