| "Lately" part 4 of 5 in Lyrical series rated PG-13 |
| Lately (i've been watching you) been thinkin 'bout you baby (and everything you do) just sittin away watching the days go by... Lately (i've been watching you) been thinkin 'bout you baby (and everything you do) just sittin away watching the days go by (Divine, "Lately") ***** I feel like a blimp already. My feet are swollen to the size of watermelons and frankly I am not fun to be around. To make it all worse, my heart aches more then anything else for Michael to return safely. Not one day during this pregnancy goes by without a constant reminder of Michael, not one minute without him on my mind.... It's been 22 weeks since Michael left, 22 weeks of progress for our baby's development and he has missed it all. Have you ever felt a breeze hit hard, like the wind was blowing it apart as you're spinning like a merry-go-round, indications of a storm touching down wish that I can wear the rain and storm, but I guess it was heart break from the norm was a day I will always remember, the saddest day in sweet november... Liz has been an angel, despite my biting remarks and short temper caused by the mood swings. She also sneaks me tabasco cookies she invented herself by the craterful. An unusual craving, but what can I expect when pregnant with a half-alien. She's been by my side every free minute, bless her heart. Senior year at school has been in session for three months now, and most everyone in Roswell knows I am pregnant, but by rumor because I've been on home school since it began, for fear of what may happen during class with this alien baby in me, not to mention it isn't easy going to school and being pregnant. It's already rough on my feet to walk around the house! As you've guessed, my Mom knows about the pregnancy as well. I told her a week before school started, with the support and persistance of Liz's coaxing. My Mom was justifiably freaked and demanded to know where Michael was. I was already emotional by then and broke into tears, but Liz covered for me, and for Michael. She said he drafted into the army, not knowing she was pregnant, and was shipped off to Europe before we could tell him, but we were trying to track him down exactly. My Mom wasn't very pleased by the excuse, but she couldn't bother with it since she was so busy trying to think about what to do with me and the coming baby. I've spent the past few weeks mostly in bed on my back, looking up at the ceiling and holding my swollen stomach with my baby in it, wondering where Michael is right then, and if he is thinking about me. A painful part of all this is that everyone knows Michael is the father except for him, at least I never got to tell him, but maybe in some way he does know .....It seems every time I am thinking about Michael for a while, the baby kicks. He, or she, misses their Dad as much as I do. Lately (i've been watching you) been thinkin 'bout you baby (and everything you do) just sittin away watching the days go by... Lately (i've been watching you) been thinkin 'bout you baby (and everything you do) just sittin away watching the days go by I must be going crazy, I could have sworn I felt Michael by my bedside while I was resting this morning. I could feel the warmth of his hand on my stomach, and the baby respond to him. At first I really thought he was back and tears of joy soaked my face, having Michael back and his happiness at discovering he was a Daddy. But it must have been a halusination, a dream, something I wanted so bad I let myself see something that wasn't there. Like a mirage, all the feelings and happiness faded when I rubbed my eyes of their sleep, and seeing that the room was dark and empty, like my heart. Baby I'm on my knees praying God help me please, bring my baby back, right back to me if lovin you was right then I don't wanna go wrong so I drown myself with tears, sittin' here, singin' another sad love song My mother is bugging me about going to the doctor for a check up to make sure the pregnancy is going fine, but I am scared to death of thinking about it. Lately i've been torn apart, i wish you hadn't broke my heart i'm missin' you babe, missin' you baby jay Lately i've been torn apart, i wish you hadn't broke my heart i'm missin' you babe, missin' you baby |