Day The Angels Cried		Five Degrees of Shame
Haiku		Metamorphis
On Love's Golden Pond		Pearl
Broken Timepiece of my Heart		Cybergirl
Passion�s Voracious Appetite		Rose
Love Is A Seagull		In Your Absence I am In Mourning
Sweet Indulgences and Chocolate Kisses		The Flowers of the Heart

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The other day the angels cried And flooded Earth with their angelic tears Tears that could never be dried And fell into God�s ears;

When a child is injured by a violent hand And is stripped of every basic human right Heaven�s angelic clan Witness in horror at such a cruel, violent sight;

God made the little children To enhance Earth�s beauty Like tiny seeds that in God�s garden Grow with the Creator�s Love; The other day a child was hurt By a cruel and cowardly deed That made her feel like dirt When a child is injured in such a way It makes her soul bleed And tears her world in twain; When a child suffers this awful crime She spends her life in pain;

Oh this afwul offense Leaves a cruel scar of shame That leaves an everlasting stain and stains forever the fabric of innocence;

God in his Sovereign Thrown Condemns such acts of violence And does frown Upon this ghastly unpardonable sin Against His most precious children The other day the angels cried And all of heaven�s citizens suffered with them A tiny heart full of pain and inconsolable grief Sent her pleas heavenward And prayed with a tremendous will That she could quickly heal And not carry this unbearable burden In this godforsaken world..... Year after year Alone with her ordeal!

Mary Gonzalez © Copyright, 1998

All alone I cry myself to sleep, Picking at old scabs that still bleed These internal injuries are so steep I alone feel the pain and aching misery And deep within my soul I feel an aching need To be loved and hugged and feel secure Has anybody found a cure?

I alone must deal with this, Must go on pretending nothing�s bothering me It is hard, don�t think it is easy to fool the entire world With a mask of bravery and faux bliss; By day I wear a brave facade But who am I kidding by all this bravado I wear... Life goes on inspite my pain And I alone must face this injury... In my heart I sing my sad song As I geet the world with a brite smile They�ll never know the sadness of my soul Nor the magnitude of my misery;

My face burns with these acid tears Which stains my face with pain and grief My heart stings most horrendously As it pounds with anxieties and fears Oh, how can I go on Pretending nothing has gone wrong When inside I feel like I�ve died a thousand times The fire that once lit my soul has died out And my whole self lies in darkness; Sometimes I just like to shout: LOOK AT WHAT HE HAS DONE TO ME! I CANNOT GO ON LIKE THIS! There is pain and sorrow in my heart That cannot be repaired

I lie in bed at night And cry in silent rage As my heart tears itself apart And my dignity feels five shades of shame Tainted a crimson, scarlet red

Yesterday I knew no bounds to happiness My life was sunshine and innocence Yet something happened and changed all that Now I live in this nightmarish void That I cannot escape

I hate the thing I have become I am the shadow of the girl I was before I loath him for what he�s done Wish he were dead, the bum! I feel like I have done something wrong As if I violated some basic human rule Yet I am not at fault.... None of this is my fault I am not the one to blame.... It was he who stained my soul Five shades of shame... He alone is responsible for my pain!!

Mary Gonzalez © Copyright, 1998

Summer ends abruptly, Trees dye their hair in golden hughes Nature dresses in its' Autumn Best!!

MGonzalez © Copyright, 1998

Deep within the resources of my soul There lies hidden A cacoon Whose growth I have stunted and suffocated With this web of silence I have weaved. My heart is like a spider whose silk weaves a silvery tapestry Of lies and silence.... To trap whatever victim it can find This spider has built a strong wall Around the perimeters of my soul And has worked day and night Unceasingly.... To capture and enthrall This cacoon that it has captured deep within me This spider is cunning and endowed with ingenuity It not only holds its prey captive and bound within its web But also suffocates him to a slow and very painful death It cunningly takes away its breath Until it is just an empty shell And with its� last breath It fights a losing battle Over life and death Until it loses and surrenders to her completely! Then it eats its prey Whole

To nourish and sustain its soul With the nourishment of its victim�s innocence I long to rescue this tiny cacoon Within its chrysalis And dare to defy the clutches of this spider And release it from its iron prison And watch in glory as it transforms itself... A manificant metamorphis My eyes delighting in its wonderous transformation... From a cacoon, a moth, into a butterfly I long to hold it against my open palms And behold the beauty and its strength... I will ponder its amazing glory As I look within myself for answers And try to understand the whys To the inequities that befall this universe And set it free against the starry skies Where it can join the other butterflies!!

MG Teddy (mgonzalez) © Copyright, 1998

Like golden ripples that disturb the water's surface Love moves a soul Through many different metamorphesis; In tranquil seas I met my love A long, long time ago And upon Love's Golden Pond I met my heart's true desire It was such an endearing experience Of which the heart grows fond And through the ages it has changed my soul forever Like the moon affects the ebbing tides My life has been moved like the variable seasons. My life has been changed by this gentle sea But my soul feels free like the dove And with the wings of this turtle dove My soul takes flight on golden amber skies above To golden seasons in the sun Which enchant my days and nights With much splendid joy and endless fun Which are now engraved forever Within the fabric of my reveries!!

Mary Gonzalez © Copyright, 1998 (unpublished)

Upon a mystic beach one day A little boy found an ugly oyster He looked at it with eyes of awe and of dismay And took it to his mother His mom, upon close examination said Johnny, this is an oyster, son Johnny looked upon the strange object in his hand Much in disgust, he grimaced at its� ugliness "This oyster is the ugliest thing I�ve ever seen!" His mother laughed and smiled at Johnny Then told her this parable: Son, once a man found an oyster upon a sandy beach and thinking it was a strange and ugly fish indeed Threw it back upon the sea This poor oyster thought that nobody wanted him So he sat upon the ocean�s bed And cried his little eyes out till they were blue As he cried and suffered in silence he heard a lovely hymn Of comfort, love, and praises... The quiet Hymn of the Sea As this homely little oyster lay there in agony Something wonderful happened to him... A marvellous alchemy Inside of this poor oyster Something valuable grew Without his knowledge something of great beauty Was growing out of this poor homely little fellow Later some divers swam near the little oyster "Go away! I am worthless to you! Nobody wants me!" Said the oyster as he sat there wallowing in sorrow The divers just opened up the oyster�s mouth and said, "Hush, there, little critter, you are wrong...for inside you Is a priceless jewel that is quiet exquisite and beautiful!" So the homely little oyster smiled a wide and boundless smile Inspite of all his outward ugliness, Inside of him was something so beautiful and worthwhile! So, Johnny, just because something or someone is ugly outside Do not be prejudice or cruel It so happens that true beauty Lies within the framework of the soul You must learn to pull differences apart And look upon the great Pearl That is in the heart.... For beauty is skin deep, my son And it may take awhile To see all the goodness And priceless gems and pearls that are hidden within the treasure chest of the heart!!!

Mary Gonzalez © Copyright, 1998

I have been living My whole entire life In the shadows of someone else�s shoes My entire life has been frozen In time I am suspended......by something beyond my control My whole life has been remodelled by A dark secret hidden inside my soul Which binds me to my past I live my whole life watching from the wayside As the circle of life continues On its� merry old cycle Of wonder and awe Today I linger in a different era.... Trapped within a false persona From which I cannot break away My entire life has been suspended by time�s cruel hand And my heart suffers with so much pain I stand here on life�s shoulder lane Like a broken down vehicle Waiting for a good Samaritan To come and resuce me from this collision How can I go on? It hurts to watch as my friends go on and on Through life�s cycle of happiness and growth Having to share their victories and personal success While I sit suspended by my grief and sorrow Without enjoying the blessings of a joyful tomorrow I watch in agony and defeat As my heart wallows in pain As I witness other�s people�s lives unfolding Like an open highway Of joy, love, laughter and success I am so sick with grief Of seeing my life through somebody else�s eyes Sharing other people�s happiness but my own Sitting here, my heart and soul begin to bleed I can�t stand the constant heartache anymore What about me? What about my own unfulfilled hopes and the dreams I never realized What about my own destiny? What about the love I long to experience? What about the love I need to share? I need to be cuddled and comforted all throughout the lonely nights I long to grow emotionally stable I long to be able To feel the loving touch of kindness and understanding And feel the warmth of unconditional love release me from this prison I need to rekindle the fire of my lost youth Which was kindled so long ago By this ruthless monster I need to feel my life�s course sailing on As I am released from this dungeon of darkness and despair!

MG Teddy (mgozalez01) © Copyright, 1998

In your Cyber worl' I'm your �lil Cybergirl I'll be anything you wish me to be Do of me what ya will I'll be your ultimate fantasy I'll be your cyber companion When ever you are sad and blue Turn me on I'll be waiting there for you... I am sheer 8 megabites of pure gal I'll be your 'lil cybergal Just log on to your PC and wait there just for me Soon I'll transcend all circuitry Just to come your way In a cyber World I am your cyber girl Turn me on today And I'll make your day brighter I am your Cyber girl I will rock your Cyber Worl'!

Mary Gonzalez © Copyright, 1998

Who will wipe away these tears upon my soul�s eyes? My soul hungers so desperately And it never seems satisfied, so alone it cries In sorrow, pain, and agony Longing so much for somebody To feed this hunger that I so desperately crave for..... There is a longing deep inside Which needs to be nurtured and satsified

There is an empty place within my heart And I simply can�t go on I feel that my soul is going to expire Without fulfilling this aching need For love and passion My heart is raging in its� own fire And nobody seems to care To contain this inferno within my soul.... With the healing elements of love�s soothing balsam My heart bleeds profoundly Without love it simply dies I long for love�s loving touch And true passion�s healing rays And so my soul cries out A vale of tears in sadness and despair Cuz I just cannot fill this empty void I feel inside And I cannot shout In joy and pleasure My life is null.... Without that certain someone who Will feed my soul With the nutrients of love and passion My soul is hungry It craves for love My heart aches for somebody who Will satisfy this hunger Deep within my soul And fill my lonesome nights and days With passion and romance... Who can end my solitude? Who will feed this ravenous desire For passion�s food I need to satiate my appetite For love and affection Which cries incessantly throughout the night Awaiting for somebody who will appease These endless pangs of hunger And nurture my soul forever With sheer ecstacy and delight!

Mary Gonzalez © Copyright, 1998

Oh, what a beautiful Face! A true beauty, soft and rare She is blessed with such a feminine and eloquent grace Which is truly beyond compare

God�s angels are quite envious Of her flawless symmetry And ageless finesse She is quite sensuous and incurably romantic And carries herself with such poise and confidance..

She is quite magnificant A true Lady.... In every sense of the word....

Her cheeks are rosy .... As soft as velveteen Indeed I�ve never seen Such an ornamental jewel as she A creature so stunningly exotic Which can cast a bewitching spell Which captivates your soul And yet delights all your senses... By just the company of her presence...

She is a lady of great mystery.... She gives off beauty and eloquence... And radiates a lovely ethereal glow Which casts a pleasant and illuminating sheen... She has such a sweet and heavenly scent Which tickles and delights your nose! Indeed she is a superb queen... On God�s whole earth Nothing reigns supreme And nothing gives such Splendour As the stunning presence of............The Rose!!

Mary Gonzalez © Copyright, 1998

Love is a Seagull Watch it soar Upon the horizon Spreading his wingspand wide and free

Love is a seagull It hovers above the silent beaches waiting to descend When it gazes upon some tasty morsel When hunger strikes his fancy He will descend upon your golden shore And feed upon the fishes With a ravenous appetite Until he satiates his need Then off he goes again on his endless flight Until he sees more tastier fare.... But once in a while he does return To familiar shores to grab a delictable bite... An exotically prepared dish Which strikes his fancy... Like a delightful diner which frequents a fine, auspicious restaurant.... He will come back for more!!! Indeed they are very territorial!!!

Love is a seagull Do not lament when you watch him depart For if indeed he is yours... Then he will return to you once more Upon the distant shore of your heart!!!!

Mary Gonzalez © Copyright, 1999

I really suffer when you are gone My heart breaks into a trillion pieces And my soul melts like snow when it meets the sun

Everytime you are far away It seems like you are never coming back again it feels like eons Since we were together... My life is never quite the same I feel like you will be gone forever.. Not coming back to be with me You kill me softly with your distance... Each morning when the sun shines.. I awake to find that you are not there And inside my soul there is constant rain I feel so lonely in the darkness.. In the shadow of your distance I am blue And my heart longs for your embrace I miss the warmth of your carresses... And your comforting smile, once more I yearn to see Your smile is like a ray of sunshine Which brightens up my day With joy and happiness! Oh, please return to me each morning And never, ever, walk away!!!!

Mary Gonzalez © Copyright, 1999

Your love is a sweet indulgence Which sweetens my life so much Your love is sheer richness I sigh with each and every tender touch And every chocolate kiss Which proceeds from your honey lips Melts inside my mouth and delights my soul with pleasure

Your love is such a treat.... A chocolate fantasy Good enough to eat I love your Hershey Chocolate kisses And your milk chocolate carresses Ah!!!!!!!! My love�s quite savory! It is a culinary dream How fortunate I have been To have my love fashioned In Hershey�s factory What is quite remarkable And very good indeed Is that this sweet indulgence Will last forever And is quite sugar free It won�t add unsightly bulges here or there Or give me indigestion But will satiate my sweet tooth With coconut and chocolate And delight my soul With so much pleasure!

Mary Gonzalez © Copyright, 1998

Let us plant some seeds of love Within the garden of the heart Let us till the earth with spades of kindess And lovingly plant these seedlings upon the fertile soil That is a good start! Let us hope that with our tender loving care they will blossom in the harvest;

Day by day let us cultivate These tiny seeds with love and tenderness Knowing in our hearts that we have tried our very best Let us pull out the weeds Of unkindness and despair Which can choke the seeds before they have a chance to grow And fertilize them with tenderness, hope, patience, sympathy and trust Then let us with perserverance sit and wait For the seedlings to grow strong and healthy every day And blossom into loving, beauteous flowers That beautify forever the garden of the heart!

Mary Gonzalez © Copyright, 1999

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