poetry

Yours Truly

After all that pain
After what I went through,
I don't care anymore.

You can disappear
You can do whatever you want
It doesn't matter to me.

I am fine and happy
I couldn't be better
Are you jealous yet?

You are a worthless human being
You are the pebble in everyon's shoe
I hope you realize this one day.

I am moving on at this point
I am never thinkiing of you again
Yours Truly: God.

5-18-05

I Disagree

I hate this world
I hate these people
Some say hate is the root of all evil
I disagree... I disagree...

I hate this world
I hate this place
Some say I hate too much
I disagree... I disagree...

I hate this world
I hate these things
Some say hate is wrong
I disagree... I disagree...

I hate this world
I hate this time
Some say I am weird
I disagree... I disagree...

I hate this world
I hate that I love you
No matter what some say
I disagree... I disagree...

5-18-05

Walk With Yourself

Keep your head up
It's time to talk with yourelf
Do you know the way you feel?
Do you know why you even breathe?
Don't ask youself WHY you're here,
Your purpose will be revealed
Maybe itls time to have a chat
Sit down and relax, it's only you
Don't be scared, let me explain.
You will live until you're needed
Once you've served your purpose
You will die, everyone does.
Don't be afraid to take chances
Or makes irreversable mistakes.
You live once and die once.
It's time to take a walk with yourself.

Copyright ©2005 Crystal West

9-24-04

Leave Me

Leave me in this world of sorrow
Don't look back and please don't follow
I don;t ant to drag you down
With my unsupressed frown
More than likely though
I've already disturbed the flow
As the flame of passion dims away
The reality of drowning opens my day
Not too many people go where I have been
Not too many people see what I have seen
Time passes so slowly here
And it is silent, not even a jeer.

Copyright ©2005 Crystal West

5-8-05

Justice is Served

What happened to us
Where did it go wrong
The blossom changed to puss
And it didn't take very long

I realize now and here
That there was nothing I could have done
I just sit at home with a beer
Dreaming of better days in the sun.

What happened to us
Where did it go wrong
The blossom changed to puss
And it didn't take very long

As the days pass
As the year takes shape
I lay in the grass
Where I don't want you to trape

What happened to us
Where did it go wrong
The blossom changed to puss
And it didn't take very long

If you dont give me an answer
I'll make one up
I won't be nice, I'll be a panther
Enjoy your cup.
Justice is served.

What happened to us
Where did it go wrong
The blossom changed to puss
And it didn't take very long

5-18-05

Puppy Love Ballad

Love everyone you meet, love them with all of your heart. If you do not like them, destroy them, but mourn their death.

When you have a person in your llife that you think you cannot live with out, and you say you love him, but you are still young and don't know what love is, then you are in puppy love.

If you are with a man and you have felt love and are on your way to being to the point of love you are in super puppydog love.

If you are with a man and you know you love him, and you know he is your soulmate, never let go. Once you find that man, never let go, and if you must let him go for some reason,

Never Forget
Never Forget

Because it will carry you through life on wings
Those are words from this poet to you,

Keep them with you, and remember them often.

6-14-05

As I Sit Here Thinking

As I Sit Here Thinking
As I sit here thinking
Of the days gone by,
I ponder the way I'm sinking.
I breathe slowly with a sigh.
Not with drinking
Nor with getting high,
But with feelings hidden deep inside.
As I sit here thinking,
I watch myself fall,
Fall into the darkness of my own mind.
I look from the outside
As well from within.
I feel loved but lost.
I'm confused at most.
I feel the pain around me,
Drowning me with hate.
As I sit here thinking,
Of the days gone by,
I ponder the way I'm SINKING!
I breathe slowly with a sigh.

Copyright ©2005 Crystal West

This was also written at a very hard time in my life. I had fallen in love with a man that will always have a special place in my heart. But that special man pushed my love away, and I am no longer in love with him. All kinds of people were giving me grief over the break up. Saying things along the lines of that I am trying to sabatage him and I am still in love with him. These things are not true, and I wanted others to know.

My best friend in high school and I would always talk about love and how much we wanted to find our true love. During one conversation about my current boyfriend, she and I created super puppy dog love. It is kind of an inside thing, but that will stay with me for the rest of my life. Thank you Sarah!!

I was trying to get over my troubles and I was thinking very clearly. While forming my opinions and my beliefs I have to come to many conclusions. Some are not the same now as they were then, but I am still living and still learning. I love to learn and love to write. I can't wait until I hear feed back on these.

I have worked at the same place for going on five years now and some of my best friends work with me. On one day I felt that my worth to those friends was very low and I felt I was holding them back. Usually we joke around, but on this day there was nothing. We have worked things out now and are cool, I love you guys (Britt & Onis)

My mind is continously wondering and pondering. I think a lot about religion, politics, meaning, and the list goes on. One thought I had was what would God say if he were trully disgusted with one of us. What would he say to let us know how he felt. I am not speking for God, nor do I honestly believe this is what he feels, it is just a "WHAT IF."

These are my poems and my explanations and thoughts on them. I would appreciate you not stealing them,if you wish to use them, just ask me, and if you have feed back, please contact me and let me know also!