My Personal Profile

Okay, what do you guys want to know about me? I really don't know what to put down here....well, maybe I'll just put down some general stuff and if you guys would like to know more about me, just contact me through e-mails or ICQ.

First of all, as you could see on the front page, my name is Rita.

As I loved rabbits very much, especially Miffy, some of my friends called me "little rabbit" ( in chinese) ^_^

I am now in form 6, studying in science stream.

What are some of my interests?

Shopping

Chatting with my friends

Listening to music

Playing the piano

Singing

Photography

Reading

Long Run

Badminton

Cooking

Needlework

Drawing, making some handicrafts

Decorating things

Actually I am interested in doing a lot of things, if I were given more time each day!

Church that I am attending: Kornhill Baptist Church

One of the most siginifcant experiences I had with God:

I started going to church since I was a baby. However, when I was in form 4, I started doubting about the existence of God and this has put me into a dilemma. On one hand I told myself that I wouldn't believe in Him unless I could find evidence to prove that He really exists, on the other hand, I didn't really dare to say God doesn't exist as I have heard so much about Him since I was small.   As a result, I struggled for quite a long period of time - I simply couldn't persuade myself to believe in Him without any proof. Gradually, I started to ignore God. I only went to my church when I am free, unlike before, when I used to attend Sunday worships every week.

Apparently, life doesn't change much after 'leaving' God. Occasionally there was a voice telling me to return to God, and I started to hesitate again. However, I felt that I could 'survive' without Him, so I walked further and further away from God, until I couldn't see Him again. Yet, though I left God, He didn't abandon me. He has been waiting for me to go back to His side all the time...

When I was in form 5, I felt so pressurised due to the upcoming mock exams and Cert. Exam, that the thought of ignoring my studies popped up in my mind. Since then, I couldn't concentrate on my studies and my grades of tests dropped. But I couldn't help myself. Then, I remembered God. Would He be able to help me? So I prayed to God, " Heavenly father, honestly, I don't really have faith in you but I feel so helpless in my studies now. If you could help me concentrate on my studies, then I will believe in you again." So from that time onwards, I started to rely on God again, especially in my studies. However, though I was in touch with God again, my faith in Him was very little. This type of 'relationship' with God persisted until CE was over.

After CE, since I got much free time, I started to think about my relationship with God again. I have prayed to Him so many times during these few months. Did He hear my prayers? Did He help me? I didn't really know. Nevertheless, I started going back to church and read the Bible again, hoping that I would got some inspirations.

It was the 9th Aug. Just one more day and I would be receiving the CE results. My heart sank. I felt so scared. I really performed badly in my exams, I thought to myself.  I wished that 10th Aug would never come. As I got no mood to do anything on that day, I went back to church where a group of brothers and sisters prayed together for me and other form 5 students. Then some of us went to a brother's home to play until mid-night. So I didn't return home until nearly one o'clock. This was the first time in my life that I got home so 'early'. Maybe I just didn't want to stay at home. I felt so insecure. Anyhow, I chatted on the phone for a long time and didn't go to bed until around 4 am.

I woke up very early on 10th Aug. I got out of my bed reluctantly, as I didn't want to go to school. I wished that I could escape from reality. As I travelled back to school to get the results, I felt that my future was so gloomy. No more hopes. Just full of despair. I finally realized that human beings are so weak- they simply couldn't control their own future. I felt that I needed God's help-I cried, and I told God that I really surrendered to Him this time. I said to God," Please, please God, I am so scared now. I don't know what my CE results would be, but I know that my future is in your hands. I believed that you would give me the best path to walk. So be with me no matter what will happens later."

My form 5 class teacher walked into the classroom. He was so happy as he announced that there were six 10As student and three 9As student from our class. My heart sank further instantly. " Goodbye Rita, DGS is not a place for stupid girls like you," I told myself.

I trembled with fear as I waited for my name to be called to get the result sheet. Finally, my name was called, and with my whole body shaking, I walked up to the teacher, got the sheet and rolled it up instantly. I didn't want to face the reality. My CE physics teacher was sitting at the back of the classroom and she waved at me and called me as I was walking back to my seat. So I walked up to her, and she said, " Hey, I've told you that you'll be alright. See? You did so well!"

I was so frustrated and confused as I still perceived that I would get a poor result. Then she whispered in my ears my result.  I couldn't believe what she said as it was much better than I expected. So I unrolled the sheet slowly and peeped in it. It was true.

I burst into tears instantly. I have never thought of getting such a result.  But I haven't forgotten about God. I knew that I didn't achieve this with my own ability. It was His mercy and grace that He granted me such a result.

On the days that followed, several brothers and sisters talked to me, and told me that they perceived that God has great plans for me, and He didn't grant that result to me for nothing. He wanted me to serve Him.

So I am now serving God in my school's fellowship. I also play the piano for the fellowship in my church too. Though there are still ups and downs in my life, and my reliance on God sometimes weakens, but my faith in Him has NOT weakened. I know that I will remain in the arms of my Heavenly Father' for the coming years until the day when I see God in heaven again.

Now, I understand that it's not evidence that makes you believe in God. It's your FAITH in Him that matters. If you are willing to let Him step into your life, He will surely guide you. I no longer insisted on having pieces of evidence to prove that He exists. My experience with God is the BEST EVIDENCE to prove to me that GOD really exists and is ALWAYS on our side.

Actually I hope that I could put more sharings in the Shareland later......

Can't think of anything else which could be put here.....
Well, put a photograph of myself here? No way!
Ask me if you would like to have one..hahaha ^_^

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